Suicidal

Hello There

                                                                       Monday 7th August, 2017

Hello, I'm Twilight Vallis, I'm not really your average 15 year old girl, yeah sure I live in a house, eat food, go to school, but I'm just, different from the rest of them, thats really the easiest way to put it. 

My mum is gone, she was so nice, she would help me with my problems and always smile at everything. She went silently, and I won't forget the trauma I went through, trying to forget the pain that has stuck with me all this time to forget that day.

My dad on the other hand, well... He is a handful to live with. My dad is a monster at night, he returns home with blood trickling down his clothes and skin, the knife he carries around is always a different shade of red each night, I think that in 5 years, there will be no one around for him to slaughter anymore, he's like a cat really, his eyes are like a cat's eyes when he hunts the people of the town, and his fur is covered with splashes of red tears, but in the morning, he's a alcoholic, angry drug taker and an abusive father to me. He never really cares for me, he only needs me to either test his new chemicals for him or tell me that he's going out to slaughter the people of the town. Every night at around 11pm he comes home, and I ask him the same question "What was the name of the person you killed?" and I'll write their name down on my wall, so I can see what a mess of a father he truely is.

Things don't get better when I'm out of the house either, the school kids all look down on me and call me names such as Idiot, nerd, weirdo, Danger, Pluto and more. It doesn't help that I don't really have many friends. They all either abandon me after they find out my secrets, or they'll ignore me for the rest of eternity.

All of these things that I have stated, are the build up and cause of my severe depression and are the deep problems in my life.

To make it easier for everyone, here's the truth:

I want to kill myself