You left
You weren't there
Even when you were you weren't
I wanted you
I wanted to be wanted
I wanted to be like them
But we aren't them
They aren't us
I wanted you to be what i needed
I wanted to be loved
Shown love
Be supported
Shown support
Cared for
Shown care
Comforted
Normal
Why can't we be normal
That's all I ever wanted
I wanted to be caught
When I fell
I wanted you to be there
I wanted you to show me
Show me
You cared
You loved
I mattered
Humans
We show emotion..
Emotional beings..
Show me
Why couldn't you have showed me
I felt like I couldn't get through
A brick wall
At times
Like The person I was looking at wasn't looking back at me
Like you were transparent
So see through I thought you were a ghost
More so like a piece of glass
Where all I can see was my reflection
Nothing of you
Just me
Always just me
Alone
Feeling alone
Always felt alone
Even when you alongside me..
You wanted me to do what you wanted
Never cared for me
It seemed
I wasn't ready for that
You didn't care
You wanted it your way no one else's
I'm just the kid right?
Yes I'm the kid.
You shouldn't be.
No matter how old I am..
You shouldn't be.
I should always be your little one.
Right?
Shouldn't one be alongside their little one
Believe in them full heartily
Believe in their word to be true
No matter what
Believe in me
You didn't believe in me
You denied
You
You lied
You ignored
You didn't want me
I felt
Unwanted by you
No matter what I ended up
Feeling
Unwanted
Years after apart
I heard nothing back
Nothing from you
You left me.
I left from home
But you left me
I wanted to hear from you
I wanted something from you
Nothing.
For years, nothing..
I shouldn't have to beg for that
Right?
Yet here we are...
I want nothing of you.
Out of my life.
Hate.
Anger.
Disappointed.
Shamed.
Broken.
Forever...
I know you won't change.
I expect you to not
Not even for me...
No hope.
No use.
No point.
You are hopeless.
You are anger.
You are selfish.
You are..
Nothing
To me.
My past.
Just my past.
Blood.
Not family.
Blood but not bonded.
We all get hurt
We all hurt from this
But forever me and you
It will always hurt
I will forever be
Broken.
Scared.
Disappointed.
For you left me.
-N.Q.
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The Deepest Parts Of My Soul
Poetry"I'm a disease you can't heal Pimple that you can't get rid Leaving a scar" "It's funny How that simple cut Can effect so much of our lives" ....my innermost thoughts and emotions written across the page for all to see in attempts to heal mysel...
