deep thoughts [english]

deep thoughts

I'm just wondering; what if I was normal? or, what is normal for society?

I'm relaxing in my bed writing this bc I don't have nothing for express myself or my opinion.

I just wanted to say that I'm so tired, so tired of everything, as tired as a koala getting up once and going to sleep again bc it doesn't have nothing to do for.

Tired of people, tired of society, tired of the education of my country, tired of the government in my country too, tired of my ILLNESSES, ISSUES, SICKNESS. I have DIABETES, CELIAC DISEASE, DEEP DREPESSION, and so much things that if I have to write them all I will never end.

My life's just stressed, annoying... for 5 months I have very deep dizziness and anxiety in my day a day. Doctors doesn't know yet what can I have, so while I have to go to the Hospital again, I'm going to psychiatry, to help me to hang all of this, bc it just went to a point that I don't know more what can I do. My mum just don't understand me, she doesn't understand how I feel.

I don't know how can be good, how can be with energy again like months ago, I used to like dancing, singing, go to school, writing, but all of this went to shit. I just want help, and nobody knows it. I'm yelling for help, and nobody hears me.