A/n I forgot to add, this is punk x pastel!
~Dan~
I looked in the mirror and I didn't see myself looking back. I had lost weight, a lot of weight. See, I don't eat unless I have to, I probably eat once a week or once every two weeks. School was hell, people called me fat, useless, unwanted, you name it. I guess it all got to me, I never talked to my family, and I had no friends really.
I looked back to my clock, 7:02am, almost time to leave for school. Quickly, I got dressed and threw my shit into my bag. Once my shoes were on, I was out the door and running to catch the bus.
I jumped off the bus and headed towards my first class, on my way to it I saw Phil Lester, he was my biggest bully, a total badass though, and kind of really cute. I knew it was fucked up to have a crush on someone who bullied you, but he took my breath away. I tried to speed past him but of course I was stopped.
He pushed m against the wall, arms on either side of me so I couldn't walk off. "Hey, princess."
I thrashed around a bit, "Fuck off! Let me go, jackass." I spat.
He chuckled, "Is princess on her period? Does princess need a tampon?" At this point his goons had joined in, Phil moved his arms and they started throwing me around a bit, once I had fallen to the ground they started kicking me, calling me a fag and various cruel names.
"Let's go, guys. He's had enough for now." Phil said, causing the other boys to wander off, I thought I was alone, I broke down crying, I sat up and managed to scoot over to the wall, I put my head between my knees and sobbed. Suddenly, a gentle hand was pressed against my back, I jumped slightly, I looked up to see no one else but Phil. "Great, it's you."
He said nothing but he put his arms around me, I was confused. "I'm sorry, Dan..." He whispered.
"Huh?" I questioned.
He sighed, "I'm sorry, I really am, Dan. I don't know, seeing you break down like that really hurt me... I'm gay, Dan. If you tell anyone I'll kill you."
I had no idea what to say, "Me too, Phil." I smiled up at him. "And-uh-and I love you.. I mean like.. like really like." I stumbled, "Why am I even telling you that? You're just going to use it against me..."
"Dan, will you be my boyfriend?" Phil's eyes were closed, he was obviously nervous.
I laughed, "Uh-yeah, I will be." Phil never actually hit me before, he just let his goons beat on me, all he did was tease me, call me things.
Phil pulled me into his lap, "You're really pretty, Howell." his hand grabbed mine.
I didn't know how to react, I just smiled and sighed. Lunch was coming up soon, "Should we go? Lunch is soon." I stood to my feet, Phil nodded his head and I grabbed his hands to help him up.
Our hands intertwined once again but as soon as we turned the corner, I was pinned to the wall. "Sorry, Howell, I just really like that skirt you're wearing.It's really doing something to me..." His lips crashed against mine, but just as soon as they were there, they were on my neck. He sucked a few hickeys on my neck, causing me to moan slightly, he pulled away, grabbed my hand and pulled me into the building. Everything happened so quickly, I totally forgot about the hickeys. Phil let go of my hand before we entered the lunch room, he let me go in first, I stepped in and quickly realized that Phil didn't follow me. I gulped and walked to an empty table, of course Phil's goons walked over to me. "Nice hickeys, fag. Maybe if I kick you hard enough they'll fly off."
I lowered my head, "That's not how it works.." I muttered.
"What was that, fairy? Did you say something to me?" He grabbed my shirt and pulled me up, I knew Phil had set this up, it seemed too good to be true, I was pushed to the floor. kicks were placed on my stomach, causing me to hunch over, more kicks to my back, that made me wince and my eyes water up, I was flipped onto my back as punches landed on my face. They walked away after a while, I pushed myself up and seated myself back at the table. Phil came rushing in, he put his hands on my shoulders. "Dan..." He started.
I stood up and pushed him away from me. "Don't touch me! You let that happen!" I started crying, "You let them do that." My crying got heavier, but my yelling went on until I completely caved into Phil's arms. "Shh, Dan it's okay. I had nothing to do with that, I promise, I was going to use the washroom before I came to sit with you, I promise."
I started shaking and Phil walked us outside. We sat on the grass while I cried. Soon enough, his goons found us. "Phil, dude, what the fuck are you doing?" The tallest of the group yelled out.
As they got closer I flinched.
"Fuck off, will ya? Leave Dan alone, if any of you ever go near him again I'll destroy you."
They all shared confused looks. "What, are you gay for him now?" They all laughed at that.
Phill stood up, "Yeah, I am. Now fuck off, all of you." He shoved the closest boy to us away and they wandered off, chatting among themselves about what just happened.
"Phil, you didn't have to do that." I couldn't look him in the eye.
He grabbed my chin and pulled it up so my eyes met him. "Darling, yes I did. Look, you're with me now, I can't have anyone beating up my precious boyfriend."
