Dear Christian

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"So are you excited Zar?" Tanong sakin ni Pia.

"Of course, I am. Sino bang hindi maeexcite? We're finally entering our Senior High!" I said while trying to sound excited.

"Oh! C'mon! Zarah! You have to be excited! Papasok tayo sa isang private school and not to mention sobrang daming gwapo doon!" Sabi nya habang nagaayos sa harap ko.

"You know that I don't really like guys right? I'm not like a tomboy pero alam mo naman..." I'm out of words, I dont really know how to explain it.

Lumapit sya sakin at umupo sa tabi ko.

"Zarah, please tell me it's not Christian anymore. It's been 2years, he's probably dead by now. Please, forget about him. Free yourself." She said.

Here we go again, not really good to start my senior year with this argument.

"Hey! Pia! Stop okay, I'm so over him. And you're right, probably he's dead after 2 years but even if he's dead or not I'm so done with him! Okay?" I said, trying to convince her. Please, convincing power! Pleaseeee.

"Okay, so can you promise me that you'll try to gain some new friends? Specially now, our strands separated us." Oh no, I almost forgot.

"And who told you that we're gonna be separated?" I smirked.

"What? Dont tell me..."

And she hugged me, lumipat ako sa strand nya. I really want to take STEM but that was because of Christian, he made me feel that I can but I can't, kung nandito man si Christian ngayon he's gonna be really mad kasi hindi ko na naman sinunod ang gusto ko, but that's the thing, he's not here anymore.

He left me.

"Pero diba gusto mo magcivil engineer? Pano yun?"

I smiled at her, may mga pangarap lang talaga na hindi para sayo kahit na gaano mo pa kagusto.

"Maybe its not just for me, and I'm trying to explore. I'm not gonna box myself anymore, not anymore."

"Zarah! Pia! Handa na ang pagkain!" Sigaw ni mama sa baba, bumaba kami at naabutan ang napakasarap na almusal.

"Itlog, sinangag, tuyo, at dark chocolate drink! Ansarap!" Saad ni Pia habang pababa kami.

"Naku, hija pasensya na ha yan lang ang kaya ng budget namin eh." Sabi ni mama.

"Mama! Wag ka ngang ganyan! Buti nga nakakalibre sya ng almusal eh, pasalamat sya at mas malapit ang bahay natin sa school!" Sagot ko naman.

"Opo, wag po kayong mahiya sakin, ako nga po yung nakakahiya dahil nakikikain ako eh, salamat po!" Sabi ni Pia.

"Oh siya, kumain na kayo at baka malate na naman kayo sa klase nyo." Sabi ni mama at nagsimula na kaming kumain.

Pagkatapos naming kumain ay naglakad na kami papasok sa school.

This is the new chapter of my life. I need to be more strong, more social and more confident. Dapat mas totoo na ako sa sarili ko kasi nakakapagod palang magpanggap. Yun kasi ang problema satin eh, iniiba natin kung sino tayo para matanggap ng taong gusto natin. Bakit kaya hindi tayo magpakatotoo at antayin kung sinong tatanggap satin? Hays.

"Ang lalim naman ng buntong hininga mo Zar....nagtooth brush ka ba?" Tanong ni Pia.

"Loka-loka! Oo naman nagtooth brush ako! Sakin mo pa sinisi kabahuan mo!" Sagot ko naman at magtawanan kami!

"Hey girls!" Sigaw ng isang lalaki na nakaway samin, at kung di ako nagkakamali sya si.....

"JAYCEEEEEE!" Ang nakakabinging sigaw ni Pia.