You're Pretty Ugly when You Cry

This is the part where I mentally debate

1. If i'm going to reply lengthely to your text or just simply say "K." and make you feel as if I don't care but not too detach to make you assume that for me you are dead.

2. If i'm going to hit the send button after drafting my reply or just edit it more.

3. If going to reply at all or just pretend o ran out of load and just text you the next day.

4. If i'm just going to call you to get it over with.

5. if it's still okay to reply at this hour not to let you assume it's witching hour and im being a witch.

but i accidentally hit the call button, and it's ringing and i died.

you picked up and i hung up. and repeatly hit my head against the wall and blown my brains out because it's one in the morning.

then you called back.

in my silence, i panicked.

silence means yes. and i never picked up.

and mentally thought of moving to jupiter. pronto.