"I'm hopelessly drunk
On the idea
That I can fix people
Even though
I can't fix myself"
- Gemma Troy
Living is hard. I never know what to do with myself. I try to be brave, I try to smile, but sometimes it gets to tiring. Friends are illusions. They say they're there for you, they'll lie to you... But as soon as your gone, that's when the truth comes out.
I used to dream, I used to believe. I used to think that I could do anything. Now I think I can't do anything. I don't know how to talk to people, so I refuge myself in my books. People ask me how I'm always so happy... I don't even know what happiness means.
I want to live, I don't want to die, but sometimes I wonder if dying is easier. I'm too scared to die however, I still want to believe that my story isn't done yet. I still want to believe that people like me. My mom still loves me, and I can't leave her alone in this horrible world. She's all alone and needs my help.
Living IS hard, but living is beautiful.
