his mumbles || an erikleen fan fiction

Part 1

Dear Diary,
                   Today was a rough day. We announced that Haters Back Off wasn't being renewed for another season :( Erik is coming over later for dinner & Angela said she might pop in too. Most of today I cried of sadness & gratefulness that I got to do two seasons of a show on Netflix that I have been writing and developing for almost ten years. I'm so so sad that I'm never going to see these characters again but I'm extremely grateful for this amazing experience. Apart from Haters Back Off being cancelled this week has been really hard anyway. I don't know why but I've felt empty. I just feel like I'm not loved & that all I get on the internet is hate. I just hope that one day someone will love me.
                                 Colleen :(

{Colleen's point of view}

"Love you, see ya later!" Kory says to me as he leaves to go on his date with a boy he met on tinder. "Hope everything goes well! See ya!!" I replied. I went over to the couch & threw myself on helplessly. Daisy came over and sat on my lap & I turned the tv on on a random channel. I went on Twitter & just read all of the amazing messages everyone had sent me about the news to try & make me feel better. As I was sat crying looking through pictures of the times on set I heard the door bell ring. I walked over wiping away my tears & Erik was stood there. I began to cry again because i was remembering all the amazing times we had on set together. He came closer to me and pulled me in for a big hug. "Don't cry," he mumbled softly.

{Erik's point of view}

Today I found out that Haters Back Off wasn't getting another season. Hearing Colleen cry to me on the phone was honestly the most heartbreaking thing ever. As if this week couldn't get worse. On Monday Mekenna broke up with me because she thought I was cheating on her with Colleen. Obviously I wasn't cheating on her. I mean I had started getting feelings for her but I would never cheat. Never.

*20 minutes later*

I can't stop thinking about Colleen. She has already been through so much the past few weeks & Netflix cancelling her show wasn't going to make it any better. Josh has been messaging her & Kory telling them that he is going to hurt them. I just need to see her & tell her that everything will be okay.

(Erik arrives at Colleen's house)

I knock on the door & wait until she answers. *Colleen opens the door* "I can tell you've been crying" I said in my head, not noticing I wasn't saying anything out load. I can see mascara down her face & without hesitation I pulled her in for a hug. "Don't cry," I mumbled in her ear. I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't even
know what I said.

{Colleen's POV}

I walked towards the living room
living room. Erik slowly walking behind me. We both sat next to each other on the couch & he told me what happened between him & Mekenna. A tear rolled down his face & I couldn't help but cry. "I'm so sorry Erik!" I told him. I grabbed his hand & told me everything will be okay & it will get better. I felt so bad for him because I know how it feels to think that you're in love with someone & then realise that it's better off that you aren't together. "Erik... i need to tell you something." All I want to say to him was that I love him & I wanted us to be more than friends. "It's just that I think you & me....." I was cut off by his lips pressing against mine as he gently put his hand on my cheek. I kissed him back & before I knew it, it was over. I felt so happy in those few seconds and I didn't want it to end. "Colleen... I love you too, I just need time." I hugged him tight burying my head in his chest.