blame me

Use to

I use to love her
I use to care about her
I use to ....have a heart
She took it and destroyed it, my heart
She did this to me
She use to smile but now I frown or I will have a distress smile hoping for someone to save me
Years into the future I now see a different person
A MONSTER
Her actions were indifferent
She didn't care anymore she hunted and hurt people she was around. She use them for her amusement
She betrayed them so they could be hurt badly 
I use to understand her
All the tears were pain
P-osion
A-gony
I-ndifferent
N-arcissist
Everything about her was a character.
She just...A Monster
She cares about hurting people
She loves hurting people
Why? I don't know
She does.
Everything she says and does is illogical.
It's like she is possessed. But she knows she is possessed and she has a choice to get that possessed thing out of her but she choices to let it be in her.
She is
Messed
Up!!!!!
Very messed up.
I sometimes wonder why did I fall in love with her.
Why?
Why?
Why?
I was just oblivious to her acrimony
I use to be oblivious to her smile . It wasn't a smile it was a monster lurking around waiting to kill.
Waiting to take you and eat you up and regurgitate you only
to eat you up again.
I use to love her. But back then I didn't now love. I didn't learn love until I left her. The only thing I got from that relationship was hate. Hate
I never knew what hate was into I meet her.
I never use the word hate until I meet her
Back then I use to be oblivious
Back then I use to want love
Back then I use to be desperate
Back then I met a girl
Back then I met a devil
Back then I use to know her
But now she is dead to me