I'll love you til the end: Riku.

The First Letter

I woke up again in the middle of the night, lately those nightmares have been more often. I feel like I haven't sleep well for days, no weeks. Since that day that Sora left the house I have been unable to have a moment of peace. I looked at the clock , it's 4:30 in the morning but I can't go back to sleep, I can only think of Sora.

The clock on the wall is ticking and the sound of it is getting on my nerves. The time doesn't seem to pass and I can't help but miss my loved one. Work has been keeping me busy the past few days and I couldn't even see him so decided to at least try to sent him a letter before I leave for work.

I know that being alone in that cold inhospitable environment can really ruin someone's mood. I want to try and distract him from thinking anything sad or bad, I want to tell him how much I want to see him so I start writing my thoughts.

Hello my loved one,

I woke up in the middle of the night because I saw a nightmare but I don’t remember what it was about. The only thing that I know is that it was so sad that I woke up with tears in my eyes. I reached across to hold you but you weren’t there and I wished you were. But I know this is a selfish wish and I shouldn’t say that to you but I can’t help wanting you to sleep and wake up with me everyday like you used to. Please don’t be sad that you can’t be here, it’s not your fault I hope you know that. It’s my fault I can’t be on your side this time.

Sora you always were the stronger one, you have suffered so much and you never complained and the only things that came to mind right now are how much I’ve missed being with you. You know the house feels empty and cold without you in it. I’ve missed seeing your smile and I’ve missed hearing your sweet voice. I want to take you back home but this is selfish. I miss the sunny morning we spend together and the afternoons we read together. Is it too much to ask to have one more moment with you like that?

Do you remember when we first met? It was summer and you were sitting alone in the beach and you only put your feet in the water. I found that funny and asked you why you didn’t get into the water and you replied that you were afraid of the vastness of the ocean. I thought it was really funny that time and couldn’t help but laugh and you were there standing with the most beautiful smile I’ve ever seen. You know I fell for you that one moment. You looked so perfect to me.

I’m sorry I haven’t been able to visit you. I’m trying to save money for the hospital bills so that I can have you close to me soon again. I want to see that smile more times and protect you. When all these end, I promise I won’t leave you alone again even for one moment. I’ll always be there with you. I have to leave you now because the sun is up and my time to get to work is getting near. You’re the most important person for me in the whole world, don’t forget that.

Riku.

After I finished my letter I got ready to go to my job thinking how much better it would have been if Sora was with me today and every day.