Text Mate (BBS Crew Fanfic) [Completed]

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When you got fics planned and drafted for other fandoms but don't want to post them until you at least finish one of the ones you are working on now........

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Praise Jesus

RoastMasterV2: I'm boredddddddddddddd

RoastMasterV2: you shits don't ignore me

RoastMasterV2: wow you complain about not having me around fOR WEEKS YET NO ONE WANTS TO TALK TO ME WTF IS THIS BULLSHIT

RoastMasterV2: ok I get it I'm lonely guys someone talk to me

RoastMasterV2: Lucas is at work, where tf is everyone, IM BORED

RoastMasterV2: you know you guys are great friends, the best I could ever ask for

RoastMasterV2: always talk to me, are always there for me

RoastMasterV2: is no one going to answer me seriously??

RoastMasterV2: did I do something wrong??

RoastMasterV2: are you guys mad at me?? Pls don't be mad at me I'm sorry for whatever I did I didn't mean to upset you

RoastMasterV2: someone pls talk to me I'm desperate

RoastMasterV2: pls guys, pls

RoastMasterV2: wow I'm over here practically having a mental breakdown in a chat that I'm basically talking to myself in despite the ten other people in here

RoastMasterV2: how are you, Evan? Oh well I'm doing fan fucking tastic

RoastMasterV2: my friends are always there for me

RoastMasterV2: the weather is lovely outside, not too cloudy and not too sunny

RoastMasterV2: I may even get a tattoo

RoastMasterV2: you people really don't give a shit do you

RoastMasterV2: I'll just talk out my feelings like Lucas says I should do more often

RoastMasterV2: I don't really know how I'm feeling, honestly I'm kinda lonely because my friends aren't talking to me, but I don't think that's the root of my loneliness

RoastMasterV2: there's a lot of things that it could be, really, maybe it's my self-esteem issues, which isn't being helped by being ignored by my friends, but it could be an issue for my loneliness

RoastMasterV2: however, I could be causing it because whenever I feel anything less than happy I try to isolate myself emotionally, which probably annoys Lucas but at least he deals with it

RoastMasterV2: I'm also kinda scared, and I think that's because of what Jon did, what he said to me, how he made me feel

RoastMasterV2: being alone scares me now, which is why I live with Lucas, which is why I'm looking for a job, which is why I rely on my friends to talk to me, because I'm just scared

RoastMasterV2: I'm just scared that something like that is going to happen again, I'm scared to feel like that again, scared to feel helpless and trapped

RoastMasterV2: it has also made me feel very vulnerable that I put all this into a public groupchat that all my friends can read and judge me about because let's be honest I'm just a whiny piece of shit

RoastMasterV2: like seriously, wtf am I? Am I gay, bi, pan, poly, wtf do I even identify as, am I even a real asexual because I felt so pressured to make my first boyfriend happy that I caved into having sex with him? Am I just a pushover that everyone takes advantage of? Probably, I mean it would take a lot of convincing but I'm pretty sure I'd still forgive Jon

RoastMasterV2: oh look I'm crying that's fun just another sign of how weak I am

RoastMasterV2: I'm gonna go take a nap

RoastMasterV2: I don't feel good

RoastMasterV2: but at least I'm not bored anymore

RoastMasterV2: damnit I jinxed it and my head hurts

RoastMasterV2: but don't worry guys, I'm fine

RoastMasterV2: I'm always fine