Crying Isn't How I Live

~Quote 14~

'What's it like,' he asked.

'What's what like,' I asked.

'Cutting," he answered.

'It's like going swimming blindfolded. You just keep going but you don't where you're going. You just know that you're going deeper. That's what the build up to cutting feels like. You dont know where you're going, only that depression has blindfolded you. All you know is that you're going deeper. Now just keep walking until you drown. YOu want air, relief, you don't want to be drowning anymore. Now imagine the relief when someone pulls you of the water. That;s what cutting is. Relief. Relief. Relief from all the pain you've been drowning in. Relief from not feeling good enough. Relief from the bullies of school. Relief from feeling like you're fat. Relief from your imperfections and insecurties. You might find cutting disgusting and you might never understand, but when you're drowning, you need saving. You need relief. So what is cutting like? It's relief.'