As some of my closer friends may know, February-13-2018 (aslo known as the day before Valentines Day) my girlfriend broke up with me, please save your pitty i dont want it nor need it and i dont want to hear 'im sorry'. Anyway, not alot of people know this but that day i cried and i died inside... to some thats a joke but i dont "feel" anymore... i know that seems dramatic but its the truth, people say "get over it" when they dont know you've lost the only thing that kept you sain... that kept your heart beating... that day foward i've wanted to cut and cut and cut but i havnt because i know it would hurt her, and thats the last thing i want to do... she is still my life, i have nothing to live for if i cant at least talk to her... this is what heartbreak dose to you... and even though you want it all to end you cant help but keep marching off in the distance with no purpose. And you you think you have nothing, you are nothing, life is just a disease and you want to be cured. This shit breaks you down starting on the mind and it creates a pit... and it slowly gets bigger till it fills your entire being... and you try your best to fill it but you just... you cant, you try to fill it with food or people or music or all of those but it dosnt work, and all you can do is sit there and deal with it.... and cry... and you dont want people to help you so you wait, wait till there not looking and you let out your true, unhappy self. When they see it they ask if your ok but your not, they ask and you say "im fine, just an off day" but inside your pleading for help but no one notices.
Thanks for reading guys, and for you guys ima really put myself out there and show you what i ment
