A Letter For My Friend

Dear friend,

I know you know who you are and this letter is for you, I'm not good at making letters or saying a sweet words,coz you know, I'm not that kind of person who'll say sweet things to a dearest friend tska Don't mind my wrong grammars. I wanted to write everything how I feel when I lost a friend like you, whether you'll read this or not at least I let my emotions will light na, I don't want to post this on Facebook or the other account of mine you know the Star-
Coz I don't want somebody will read this except you, I don't want To PM you ( private message) you in the messenger coz I know you hate me.

So lets start,
I'm very sorry for the reason of staying away from you.
To be honest after hearing and seeing those things makes me sad you know that?
Hearing from her galing kay -air-
Na magkatabi raw kayo noon nung culmination ng AP then imbis na si A
Yayain mo, ni yaya mo si JOAN ayun starting from that day nagtampo sila  ako  Hindi , I just faked my sad one

Nalungkot ako nung sinabi ni A na "sumasakabilang kaibigan na"
Damn, na hurt talaga ako nun tobehonest how could she says that ... Napaka childish niya, na impluwensiyahan niya si J Jamie ayun .

After several days dun na ako nagtampo sayo  nung nakita Kong nagtawanan kayo ni Fred,Marcel,Joan,Kamille,Henna, sinabihan mo na sila sa crush mo at di na kami ayun nalungkot ako di mo na kami pinapansin which is okay lang pero nakakalungkot eh, dika na nga makatigin sa akin, ayun, nalaman ko rin na may ka Fling fling chariot ka chat ka hung pinsan ni Fred. Pero starting those days I saw you changing day by day and that's what makes me more sad.

And that day nagsimula na ako sa paghihinala Kay A

I don't want to accused her without any evidence but I have this gut feeling na she's a story maker,Insecure,selosa, a little bit lier? And most of all luoran .

Kaya ayun. Nov.16,2018 dun napatunayan ang pagka selosa,at luoran niya

Skl
A and Karina talks happily while Jamie, K and me is bored kaya lumabas kami at umupo sa bench outside the classroom then we talk and talk.

And then later on lumabas si A then sinabihan kami na ganun?
Sumakabilang kaibigan na rin kayo? I guess sinabi niya yunn but not sure though, nagsabi pa siya na ba't di nnyo ako tinawag? Unfair kayo tapos ayun pumasok siya sa loob ng classroom while them Jamie and K said na hala, pano nayun? Nagalit siya sa atin.

While me is in deep thinking , my thoughts are saying so ganun?
Tsk! Pathetic childish act. It won't buy on me,kaya sinabi ko as kanila hayaan na siya.

They agreed,

I have this pride and I have this saying of mine na pag di ako ang may kasalanan I won't say sorry unless if its my fault syempre I'll say sorry.

But damn she's pitiful, kaya nagsorry nalang ako even though it hurt My pride the ego.

Kaya ayun, Once I've been hurt by a friend the trust I build for them is gone I mean not totally gone I guess may 15% pang natira.

Kaya Cienier I'm sorry our friendship might not be back the way it was, I'm grateful I met you who'll understand my state I mean sa kalagayan ko at sa family ko , you know the story behind my father's mistress,
I hope you'll keep it a secret, I may say bad things to you, I'm sorry I really am. Call me a fake/plastic friend but to tell you I'm not. Believe me I didn't trait you like the way they trait you but I guess the saying birds with the same feathers flock together kaya siguro iba na yung trato mo sa amin ganern
believe me I'm may be with them but I'm not hundred percent like them.

I say thinggs about you but not that bad just to prove to A and J that kakampi nila ako.coz I don't wanted to be alone.

Kaya  I'M VERY VERY SORRY.
And THANK YOU for being my friend for about a year na.

I just want to be still your friend pwede ba? Kahit di na close?
I guess dito na magtatapos C, sorry talaga I hope you'll forgive me...
I miss you fren, wala na akong  ka wattpad buddy na pwedeng masabihan ng lahat ng stories na nababasa ko ...

✌💕