This Love Has Torn Us Apart (Ricky Horror Fan Fic-I Need To Be Loved Book #2)

I Curse The Day That I Let You In

Song: Hey Baby, Here's That Song You Wanted by blessthefall

Ricky

I walked around the city aimlessly for about a half hour. How could she say no? Didn’t she love me? I wasn’t even that angry. I was more worried. Was she only staying with me because of Cameron? Was this all a lie? I understood I screwed up and she probably didn’t trust me fully anymore, but I’d rather her not lie about it and just come out and tell me. Everything had been a bit weird since her car accident, but I hadn’t thought much of it. I hadn’t thought she’d reject me. I thought we were in this together.

As I neared Into The Dark’s bus, I let out an angered huff and swung open the door. I immediately heard Midnight’s sweet voice arguing with Jeremy. “Jeremy, I just can’t get married. Not after so little time and not after what he did,” she exclaimed. It was obvious from her tone she was mad at him, which was a shocker. Her being made at Jeremy was like seeing a koala in Scranton; it didn’t happen. Those two were inseparable.

“Midnight! Ricky is the perfect guy for you! You can’t let him go!” he yelled. Well, at least he thought we were a good couple. At least I had one person on my side.

“That doesn’t mean I need to marry him! You just don’t understand! What if he cheats on me again?” she shouted. Her words cut like a knife to skin. Did she really think I would continue to cheat on her? I told her it was a one time mistake and that she didn’t have to worry about it again.

“You’re still on that? It’s obvious he regrets it and that he loved you! Why can’t you just put it all behind you?” he bickered. I didn’t expect her to just forget what happened, but I did expect her to realize I loved her and I wasn’t going to mess up.

“Of course I’m still on that! I didn’t even get anytime to process what happened because you told me to forgive him! Well, news flash, Jeremy, I don’t need you to run my life for me!” she screamed. Her outburst was really taking me by surprise since she was usually such a quiet, calm person.

“Fine, I’ll stop butting into you life,” Jeremy snapped before he entered the fount lounge where I was witnessing their conversation from. He looked so angry and I could understand why. I knew she was upset, but she didn’t need to take it out on Jeremy.

“You got a real winner there,” he told me sarcastically. I let out a sigh. I thought I had an amazing girlfriend until then. I still loved her with all my heart, but she could be so unruly sometimes. She had a right to say no, but she had no right to tell her best friend off for no reason.

“What am I suppose to do now? She’s obviously going to be stubborn. I guess I should’ve just stayed home,” I complained, running my fingers through my hair. I guess I should’ve waited longer to ask her.

“The only thing I can tell you, man, is to wait till she’s cooled down and then try to win her back,” he suggested. I know he wanted us to get back together. He was the one who coaxed her to forgive me before.

“But, what if she was just staying with me because of Cameron? I don’t want to be with her if she doesn’t mean it,” I sighed. I didn’t want to continue to be in a relationship with her if she wasn’t being honest.

“She’s not. She loves you. She just isn’t ready to get married. She’s always had trust issues because of her did and I think she just needs more time,” he told me. I understood what he was saying, it was just a challenge for me to accept it. I didn’t think she would ever say no.

“I guess you’re right, but…I just thought that we could finally be a real family,” I murmured. I had hoped we could get married and I would be try to be a better person for her. I thought we could be a happy family.

“She’ll come around eventually. Just give her some time,” he encouraged with a sympathetic smile. He then stood up, gave me a pat on the back, and exited the bus. How much time would she need, though? I didn’t want to wait around forever. I wanted her back right then.

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I woke up to the sound of faint talking coming from the front lounge. I had slept in the back of the bus because the originally plan was for me to sleep in Midnight’s bunk with her, but that idea was obviously out the windows now.

“Can you just talk to him?” Blake was saying. It looked like Jeremy still wasn’t talking to Midnight. I couldn’t blame him, though. She seemed to think she could do everything by herself, which wasn’t true. No one could do everything without help. We all needed someone to push us in the right direction sometimes.

“No. Can you guys just stop telling me to forgive him? I don’t want to,” she yelled. I let out a groan. Why couldn’t she just see I loved her and take me back? I hadn’t even really done anything this time.

“Sorry. I’m just trying to help,” Blake replied defensively as I heard the sounds of a baby, my baby, crying. As much I didn’t want to be around Midnight, my daughter’s needs came before my own.

I made my way to the front of the bus to see Midnight trying to calm Cameron down while Blake gave her an angry glare. “Do you want me to do it?” I questioned, gesturing to the crying baby in her arms.

“No, I got it,” she snapped. Why did she insist on pushing everyone away? Why could she just let us help and love her?

“Why can’t you just let me help you?” I screamed. It was like my mouth had just taken over. I hadn’t meant to yell at her and I wasn’t even talking about Cameron. I was more focused on why she wouldn’t let me ease her pain.

“I don’t need you, Ricky,” she shot back. With that she stood up and stormed off to the back lounge. She being such a pain. She might insisted on pushing me away, but I wasn’t going without a fight and she should know that by now.

“Well, she’s she half mine, she whether you need me or not, you’re stuck with me,” I pointed out sassily. My comment made her turn around with a hard expression on her beautiful features.

“That doesn’t mean I need to marry you, Ricky. Did you really think I would be ready? I can’t believe I ever forgave you!” she shouted. The last part hurt like a million pins stabbing me eyes at the same time. It felt like she was ripping out my heart slowly. Did she really revet forgiving me for what I had done or was she just saying that out of anger?

“You act like I asked you to do something terrible. You’re such a stubborn bitch!” I yelled. The words were harsher than I had intended, but I was outraged. Did she really expect me to be calm when she told me this was all a mistake?

“I wish I never met you!” she screamed. I knew this time for sure she was just at me and didn’t mean what she said, but it still felt like a blow to the chest. This whole situation hurt. I just loved her and she was making this all a challenge.