Torn 2

Chapter 1

"Well good morning Ma!" I smiled walking into the kitchen watching her warm up my son's bottle. Which by the way let me say was an amazingggg experience!

Odell and I decided to do a at home water birth. The entire experience unlocked a new door for Odell and I. We bonded on such a deeper level, like it was probably one of the best experiences EVER. I only prayed that this pregancy would really bring Odell and I back to that super happy place before Nisha and especially before the whole August situation. And we were better.. for a while actually. But nothing last forever! Odell promised me that he would travel between here and NY for the year to be here for the baby and I. Soon after he started camp he "claimed" that traveling was taking a tole on him! So I said fine let's just try to make other arrangements. Then I find out that he's been out to LA hanging with friends like he doesn't have a new born in ATLANTA. Like fuck you mean?

"Hi my little prince!" I squealed taking him up from my Mom's. Odell Cornelius Beckham III!  7lbs,4oz. Born June 13th. This little baby was the breath of fresh air. Olivia adores being an older sister, and with her getting older and more understanding of things, Ive looked to her sometimes to be that peace that HER FATHER should be. I just really just didnt expect things to go the way they're going... lord knows I dont want to be a single Mom.

"You sleep ok? I heard some arguing late last night" My mom side eyed me closing the mircowave door.

I sighed and shook my head holding in tears. "Honestly Ma, I just don't know where we are anymore. He was suppose to come last weekend but couldn't last minute so I said fine come this weekend! Now he's talking about he gotta fly out to see his grandma because she was sick. And of course I don't wanna accuse him of lying because it's his grandma but I found the statements of his flight out to LA the other day!" I explained as the built up tears started to fall.

She handed me the bottle and sat down next to me placing her hand on my knee. I sobbed as I sat baby Odell up to be fed.

"Jazmine listen to me. You guys are soulmate to be married in three more months. Y'all need to sit the hell down and talk like grown ups. Be straight up ask him about LA. Because who knows you could have been over reacting. Or maybe he has a valid explanation. Just please I know you guys can work thru this. Me and your father went thru something similar when you were born. Only thing was your brother wasn't as good of a sibling as Livi is. Kay still wanted everything to be about him." She chuckled some. I snuffled and wiped my tears adjusting the bottle for my son. 

"I know Ma, I just don't know. Like all I want is for us to happy! Is that too much to ask for?"

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"Let me know when make it home Ma! Or I'm calling the cops on you!" I laughed as she climbed into her truck. 

"I will sweetie!" She shouted back before pulling off.

"Come on man, let's go try to get you down for a nap" I cooed to my son walking back into the den. 

She's such a blessing for me. She has really helped with me being alone...I'm just glad I have a mother that cares enough to help me and not judge me. She out of everyone's knows the ups and downs I've had with Odell. And she has never judged me, probably because my father put her through some real shit, but she still stuck around. Now that's love!

1 hour later

"Wait what? Who is this?" I questioned. Surprised by what the nurse just said to me.

"St. Joseph's" She replied

"You sure he got nobody else he could've called?" I asked quietly smiling some looking down at Odell III.

"No ma'am. I'm not sure your relationship with him but he begged us to try to get in contact with you. No one has been down here since he was admitted.." The Nurse trailed her words off.

What? I'm in complete shock! Nobody at all came to check up on him? I haven't even heard his name in the blogs recently so, hell I hope that's the reason! Maybe before I get down there somebody would have beat me to it.

I was quiet for a minute, trying to access the situation. Okay Jaz, you're at a different place in your life, your getting married in three months, and you and Odell are HAPPY. Livi is happy. So the good in you is telling you to check up on August and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I just don't want this shit to backfire on me... Last thing I need is to be torn again...

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Comments?

Are y'all ready to hear Odell side of things?

Yes August is back...for now....

Jazmine really shouldn't have to be raising two kids on her own. What are y'all thoughts on that?