I kinda always knew that I wasn't the typical girl. In kindergarden I played with toy cars instead of barbies and stuff. I never liked those "girly" colors. When I had to choose my first backpack for school almost every girl wanted a pink one. The first thing I said to my mom was that I don't care that much about how it looks if it's not pink. So you can say for sure I wasn't a typical girl.
As soon as school started boys and girls started to separate and my once best friend didn't talk to me that much anymore because I was a girl and he was a boy. I didn't understand that. I wanted to play with the boys more but that wasn't a real option. I only had one boy friend that time and it sucked. I became a girl more and more. Starting dancing and stuff but I still didn't feel like I belonged to the girls.
That stayed this way till the end of middle school. Girls and boys started mixing again and I was more connected to the boys I was friends with than to the girls. The girls started to wear make up and I tried but it didn't feel right. So I stopped. I still had long hair but I had a ponytail or braids almost every day.
We changed school and with the change of the school (and another event in my life) I started to change. I became myself instead of trying to fit in. And that is the point in my life when I started questioning my gender. I didn't feel like a girl but I was scared to say that I wasn't a girl at all. So I said I was a demigirl. But it still didn't feel right. So I started saying I was nonbinary. With my best friend I searched for genderneutreal names and changed my name for myself and some friends I was out to. But saying I was neither a boy nor a girl still didn't feel right. I started questioning my gender again. And that's where I am now. I'm not feeling 100% like a boy. But I'm 100% not a girl. And 90% sure not agender.
So this is my story. Experiences I made because of being queer. Maybe answering questions of you guys ^^
