My demons

What silence

As I lay there in my bed, they scream, and scream. They won't be quiet, I ask them to stop, but they won't. I get up, their screaming dimmers as I put in my earphones. I hear nothing while my music plays. There is an interruption with my music, my music stops, there is no noise. I hear whispers in the back of my head, it's hard to make out what they are saying. I try to turn my music back on but it doesn't work. It's as if they needed silence. They start to scream again, but this time it's something I understand. I try to shoo them away because they are trying to get me to do something I very much don't want to do.  SCREAMING! SCREAMING! SCREAMING! THEY WONT STOP SCREAMING! They are driving me insane.
It has been 2 months and they haven't stopped for a single minute, it took me hours to get to sleep and when I did it was very minimal. They convinced me to stop eating, they convinced me that my body was not precious so why shall it stay intact. They made me believe that the only way to get relief was to destroy my thighs. They were right.