Non-Existent love

Chapter 1

January 10th: Josaline Ray Suicide

On January 10, a mother and wife hangs herself in apartment 15 of Red Velvet Apartment Homes. Her suicide is believed to be driven by the supposed divorce between Josaline and John Grey (husband) week of January 15, one week from Josaline's suicide, John planning to be with Susan Ryce, already moved in together the weekend after the suicide, taking Amber Ray with them. Amber is the only child of Josaline and John, 10 years of age.

More about Josaline:

Josaline was born in Utah in the USA moving to Wyoming after the birth of Amber. She died at the age of 35. She had her daughter at the age of 20, and married John Grey at the age of 23. Her parents already passed, and no known siblings other than Ros--

I stop reading and shut down my computer. My mothers' suicide being the headlines in most news on paper and online. I'm not talking to my father. My mother had one brother and one sister, not knowing where her brother is. Her sister lived one unit down from us in Red Velvet Apartments. After my mother died, my father wasted no time to move in with his girlfriend Susan. My aunt Rose was out of town, on a trip, so I had no other option but to move with my father and the woman who tore the family apart. My father also said it would help me with the grieving of my mother if we moved out of the "murder scene" and I moved schools. And states.

That was seven years ago. That was when I was 10. I don't trust my father still. I don't trust boys. I don't trust Susan either, even now that she is my step-mother. She knows I don't like her. She tries to bribe me to like her with pets, electronics, clothes ever since they married. She works in an office all day, and my father works from home most of the time.

When I was 11, I used Susan's try-hard to change my name from Amber to Kaylee, a name my mother wanted my name to be. My father chose Amber. I'm not an Amber. The name just doesn't fit me. I died my hair to a midnight blue, cut it to my shoulders, and I wear black and sweaters all day, every day. Converse are my only worn pair of shoes. People call me emo. Or scene because of my hair. I consider myself an emo. I couldn't care less what other people call me. I listen to MCR, Pan!c at the Disco, Pierce the Veil, Twenty-One Pilots.

Bands like those. My father said I was too pretty to be changing like this, but... do I care what he says? He obviously doesn't know beauty. My mother was the person that made anyone jealous and self-conscious just standing next to her. It's Sunday, the last day before school starts. This year, my father decided to move me to a different high school for my last year. This is gonna be fun I think sarcastically. Crest High is the school I will be exiled to this year. And, unlike my small private school that is in the neighborhood, I can't walk because it is too far away. So, until I meet a friend with a car, I have to spend my mornings with Susan. Another reason to 'love' the new school

"Hey, Am—Kaylee, Susan is going shopping, I want you to go with her. I think you two should do something the last day of vacation. Get some decent clothes, you know. Other than black, and some emo bands. And, get a more colorful sweater" My father interrupts my thoughts leaning on the door-way of my darkened room. He is referring to my favorite sweater. Black zip-up sweater, with thumb holes in the sleeves. He doesn't approve of my change and clothes, and I really don't care.

"Yea, sure. I'll get a different sweater" I spin around in my computer chair to face him. The first time I've faced him without him telling me to. And, evidently, the first time I've talked to him today. It's already 12. I would rather not talk to him at all, but.

"Really" He seems surprised for me to agree with him for the first time. A lot of firsts today

"Yea" I say spinning back around to my computer "I'll get the MCR sweater I've been wanting." I add powering my computer on