1 year later
Were together. We still had fireworks. Then he stoped texting as often. He was different. I asked him if he was falling out of love. He said "no?" I was concerned. He seemed to pissed of all the time or suicidal. I asked him one day I said are you okay. But he didn't reply till one week later. He said "if not the hospital cause you overdosed on drugs is "okay" than yes I'm fine" i start to freak out. He's suicidal and I am not helping him. Maybe I'm not good enough for him. Maybe I make him want to kill himself. That made me suicidal. Cause I wasn't good enough. That where I get all my insecurities. That where pain with him began. He found out I was suicidal. He told himself it was his fault. I told him things at the house are getting worse and then when I go talk to you your not doing well. Now your the only thing good in my life. He freaks out on me and I get pissed at him. Then we don't talk..............
