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Chapter 1~ Goodbye!

A/N:

Y/N is a teenager who has previously left high school, she doesn't like her family since all of the yelling so instead she speaks in an American accent and uses American words. It's her way of dealing through the yelling!

Y/N POV:

"Are you sure you'll be fine here, by yourself with them fighting all the time?" Phil asked. "Of course, plus you need to get out of here while you can" I said laughing. I obviously didn't want Phil to leave me with all of this but I knew he needed to leave, to explore London. "Thanks, I knew you'd be supportive, I'll call you when I arrive" he said hugging me. "See you later" I said waving as his car drove off. As I walked past my arguing parents I felt my phone vibrate. I look down to see Beck texted me to see if I'd like to come over.

I told him I'd be over in thirty minutes. I brushed over my hair, brushed my teeth and called for a cab. I dreaded calling for cabs because I never knew the person who had my life in their hands. Phil was always up for driving me around because his friends really were never over. I guess he never felt that his friends would last, or it could be the fact that mom and dad fight every time they take a breath.

"I'll see you later guys, I'm meeting up with Beck" I said knowing they weren't listening. "Bye! Have Fun" Martyn said as I left. The cab driver wasn't as bad as I was expecting, yes he talked a lot about his kids but it wasn't bad. Finally I arrive at Beck's house and I see his mom watering the garden. "Hi, Mrs. Kaplan!" I said.

"Hello dear, I heard your brother left for London this morning" Mrs. Kaplan said. "Yes, he's going to meet up with one of his friends from the internet!" I said. "Uh, teens and the internet, at least my son doesn't get on that garbage!" she exclaimed. "Well he is a great one" I said. "Yes he is, well I'll let you go in and catch up" she said.

"Okay, and your petunias are looking great Mrs. Kaplan!" I exclaimed. Mrs. Kaplan was a great conversationalist, she could talk for hours about Beck or her flowers. As I walked in I felt a breeze hit my hair. I saw Beck's dad reclined on his chair asleep.

I walked past him and into the enclosed hallway where all of the bedrooms were. I assumed this is where Beck would be because he didn't like being around his dad. Beck's dad was a bad alcoholic and got very upset and would harass his friends when they were there so, besides the living room and kitchen, I've only ever been in his room or the bathroom. Beck was very protective of me seeing as he never had a successful relationship due to his fathers harassment, so he wants to keep me away from it. "Beck?" I said.

"Over here" he said in a corner illuminated by a desk lamp. "Babe what're you doing?" I said setting my bag down. "I'm trying to use my phone while my mom is gardening, I only get so much time!" he said. "Okay, well how much longer will you be on for?" I asked. "Just one second I'm telling my friend that I have to go and then I am all yours!" he said smiling

I took this opportunity to look around at some things in his room. There was a skateboard hung on the wall, a fish tank in the corner, and a large selection of books. Then I saw on his dresser a picture of Me and Beck on our first date. Beck's beautiful wavy-shag black hair blowing in the wind as his arms sit around my waist while a snapped a picture. "You have great hair, have I ever told you that" I said.

"I think you did on our first date!" he said plugging his phone up and locking it away. "I mean look at it in this picture, its perfectly flowing" I said pointing him out. "Oh yeah it is, but you look great too babe, I mean your hair is beautiful, and I wouldn't trade you for anyone" he said. "To be honest I'm glad my dad screwed up my past relationships' he said kissing my forehead. "Thanks, and I'm glad that I took drama class!" I said embracing Beck.

Beck's body was very comforting and made me feel at home. It was like hugging Phil, but I was in love with Beck. I could stay in Beck's arms for hours. "Well, what do you want to do, we could cuddle, or go for a walk" he said. "Cuddling would be nice but so you think we can cuddle and study?" I said.

"That can be arranged" he replied. "Great, because in the event you might say yes I brought my Algebra book " I said placing a large book on his bed. His bed is pushed up against a wall so I backed up in the corner and snuggled in. He joined me in my corner and cuddled. Beck is great at Algebra so he really helped me understand it and get the concept.

While we were studying some of my hair fell from behind my ear and he pushed it back. We then had a long staring contest. He put his palm on the side of my face and sat up and kissed me. This wasn't a big deal because we'd kissed before but not like this. It was really heavy heated kissing.

I shut my book and moved it to the side, as it began to turn into more than kissing my phone began to ring. I assumed it was Phil and stopped the kissing to answer my brother. I saw it was the house number. This was surprising due to no one using it. I answered my phone to my Moms voice screaming to come home because she was worried about me.

"Okay I'm coming stop screaming" I shouted. "I have to go Beck my mom's pissed that I left without at least leaving her a note". Beck looked at me disappointed but also with worry. "You sure you're going to be fine going back, I can walk you" He said. "No, my parents are most likely heated and I don't like my friends seeing my family that way" I said.

"But I'll text you tomorrow!" I said grabbing my things. "Okay, I love you" he said. "I love you too" I said pecking his lips. He walked me to the door worried about his father. I walked across the street, looked back and saw him watching me walk away.

I didn't want to leave early but if I didn't I would be in even more trouble than I'm in now! And of course I walk in to screaming and yelling. "MAYBE IF YOU'D JUST LISTEN TO YOUR FAMILY MORE WE WOULDN'T ALWAYS BE FIGHTING!!" Mom yelled. "MAYBE IF YOU PAYED MORE ATTENTION WE WOULDN'T BE YELLING, I MEAN YOU DIDN'T EVEN SEE YOUR DAUGHTER LEAVE OR NOTICE THAT YOUR ELDEST SON LEFT FOR LONDON!!!" Dad retaliated. I tried to sneak past them to get to my room but my mom saw me.

"FREEZE, COME HERE!!" She screamed. "WHERE WERE YOU?". "I was at Beck's house, I told you before I left mom" I said. "Well I didn't hear it, you should really speak up!" Mom said. "I'm sorry that you couldn't hear me over your yelling" I said.

"YOU WILL NOT BLAME THIS ON US" Dad yelled. "WHATEVER, IM SO SORRY I DIDNT WRITE A NOTE! It's not like you would've read it anyway" I yelled. "WHAT WAS THAT LAST PART!" Mom yelled. "I SAID YOU WOULDN'T HAVE READ IT ANYWAY! CLEAN OUT YOUR EARS!" I yelled. "YOU'RE GROUNDED YOU WILL NOT SEE BECK OR ANY OF YOUR FRIENDS YOU WILL STAY HERE AND BOND WITH YOUR FAMILY UNTIL YOU KNOW WHAT IT MEANS TO BE HAPPY AROUND OTHERS AND RESPECT YOUR PARENTS!" Dad yelled.

"FINE!" I yelled running up the stairs. I slam my door shut, throw my bag on the floor, and flop on the bed. Being 19 and not able to go anywhere is tough. When your only source of shelter and other necessities are from two people that you can't stand. I turn over so I'm facing my ceiling. It was very dark the only light coming from my room were the fairy lights that had some of my favorite polaroid pictures.

There was pictures of Martyn, Phil, and I as children, me and my friends Trevor and Jade, and Me and Beck's first date. These were precious memories that i felt were worth keeping. There was a section on the lights that had gone out and conveniently it was a picture of my mom and dad when they were younger. I stared at this picture, I loved my parents but it seemed that this rough patch they were going through would last forever. Phil and Martyn are older so they would always try and convince me that they were going to be fine and our family would be the way it was years ago.

I never actually believed them but for their sakes I would pretend that I was happy and believed everything would fix itself. About 3:30 AM I heard my phone make a 'beep' noise and decided I would check it out because I was just sitting staring at the ceiling anyway. It was Phil, he'd texted that he'd arrived at his flat. I texted back and said 'that's great, is your friend there?'. 'No he said he'd be here tomorrow he had to pack some extra things'

'Oh cool, well I'm going to try and get sleep, you should too, Love Ya!>3'

'You too ttyl sis>3'

I then turned my phone off and closed my eyes. Of course this didn't work so I sat there thinking about life and what I was going to do while I was grounded!!