I'm just a freak I don't understand how or why anyone could want or love me they shouldn't I'm just one of the world's many mistakes I wish I was never born I don't know why I can't stop feeling like this I mean I've been doing good feeling some semblance of contentment maybe even happiness but here it is again this feeling I can't seem to fight it I mean no matter what it just keeps coming back I guess that means it's true I mean look at my history it's obvious I'm just a dirty whore I don't deserve all this I should be beat and put down I'm such a horrible person I wish I could just die but no that would be way to easy mistake freak fat ugly that's what I am those are the words to best describe me of course can't forget dirty rotten whore and slut and piece of shit I deserve this hell I don't understand why I am being loved I don't deserve it ugh I'm so confused he'll just leave like everyone else I mean I hope he doesn't I don't want him too I'm feeling things that I've never felt before but it just scares me more gives him a chance to hurt me deeper maybe I should just go find some meth I mean it always makes the voices shut up at least God what is wrong with me I really am just a fat rotten ugly piece of shit I don't deserve any of this maybe it's all punishment a trick to make me feel safe and then next thing I know I'm broken and torn apart only this time I won't recover it'll actually kill me when it happens this time
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Inner Turmoil and Poems
Puisijust my inner turmoil and thoughts, sometimes in the form of poetry. just feels good to write the shit going on in my mind and maybe even through posting talk to someone idk I'm random and weird so...