Everyday, I you.

The Brain and... What's Left of It..

I am the Brain...

And there's this someone...

Who seems to like being called... a Heart.

I am logical, innovative, and stable.

She was jumpy, hyper, and strong willed.

I think everything through.

She literally dives right in, head first.

Ironically enough...

She doesn't use what's actually inside of her head.

Figuratively, of course.

We were so different.

So diverse. So unlikely to be ever compatible.

Yet...

We work so well together.

We were partners.

We blended perfectly.

In some aspects where my smarts fail to prevail me...

She becomes my pedestal.

And...

A lot of times, I have to be the one to keep her in check.

We worked so well, in fact...

That I didn't even notice it...

I was neglecting her.

...

I didn't value her opinions.

I stayed with my soulless facts.

I let her run towards potential danger...

Hoping that she would actually learn a lesson...

That I forgot to even worry about her.

I was treating her like a child!

When in truth, she was only abiding her morals.

What I thought I did for intellectual advancement...

I actually did because of insensitive "enlightenment"!

I thought I could control her.

I thought I could own her.

I wasn't using her as a pedestal.

I was USING her as a doormat!

I thought I knew her every actions.

I thought I know what step to take in every move.

I thought I could use her as my pawn.

I really thought...

I wouldn't lose her...

I thought she wouldn't break.

I... I thought...

I thought so much that I forgot about the little things.

No...

I overlooked them.

And when I finally knew about this...

It was all too late.

She was shattered.

I had lost her.

I made her run for a problem... unprepared.

I didn't warn her.

I only watched her.

Despite knowing the fact that there's a problem, unsolved.

I got so used to using her that I... that I...

I let herself break.

She didn't return...

Not like how she used to.

I thought she was playing games with me again.

I thought she would walk back in defeat...

But still empowered...

Like she always did.

But she didn't.

And now, because of me...

She's gone.

And she took my feelings with her.

For the first time in my life...

I didn't think...

I didn't think this would happen to me...

I didn't think I would actually FEEL this way...

I never knew that I was capable of feeling at all.

And I never knew that I would miss her...

So, so, very much...

I never knew how much I've missed...

When she was still here.

I never knew how much I'll miss...

When she dissapear.

I knew...

She could never be replaced.

Now I'm just a broken thought...

Who made a broken heart.

I'm such a sap.

I'm certain she would have called me that.

But no one's here anymore.

I don't know...

How to live without her.

Simply...

I can't.