ethereal.

withered away

✧･ﾟ: *

i sighed as i stared out of the newly frosted glass window, my foot tapping the tiled floor angrily as my thumb found its home between my teeth.

my heart was beating faster at every growing second with impatience and anxiety. my mom stood up from her own plushed seat and sauntered off to the window i had been staring at a mere second ago and opened it.

a gust of cold air flew in the room as a shiver shook me and my skin erupted in a bout of goosebumps; but i didn't mind.

outside of the glass i could see the grass that was once green and lively, now covered in a thick coat of white snow. the sky was a grey colour as the sun was concealed behind the thick clouds that shielded the sky.

through all of the anxiousness and worry i had been feeling, i smiled. looking out at the dull sky somehow brought me joy as i imagined what laid behind it.

i closed my eyes as the sky went to a pitch black and emerging from the looming shadows; came a luminous group of constellations.

the stars shone bright as i envisioned myself floating inside the thick atmosphere. i rose my hand as i tried at an attempt to touch one of the many stars.

a smile erupted across my face after what seemed like a dozen decades of emptiness, even if i was only sixteen years old right now.

i held the star delicately in my right hand as i observed the magnificent constellation and sighed in awe.

i couldn't fathom the wonders of God's creation that had currently sat in my right hand as equations and sentences circled around my mind.

but as quickly as all of those stars had formed and my mind seemingly able to be released of the tension that had been clustered in there, it all simply; disappeared ...withered away like a rose in its final moments.

i soon found myself falling, faster than i could draw a breath or even blink. my breath hitched in my throat as i continued to fall in what seemed like an abyss— and i was depressed all over again.

i reopened my eyes to find myself sitting in the same hospital room; with the same white walls and the same uv piercing through my porcelain skin with the same frowning expression smitten over my face.

"i'm so sorry, Samantha, but the cancer has spread to your lungs." doctor reid proceeded to tell me as he sent me a look; which consisted of grief and pity.

my mother's hand clasped over my folded ones in my lap as her body erupted into a fit of cries.

i couldn't seem to form any words at the sudden confession as my mouth stayed shut and i stared at the tiled floor in front of me.

this was my fate, i presumed. after struggling with the deadly disease on and off since i was ten, i realized that this, in fact was God's planned ending for me and i was finally ready.

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