Prototype

Sure I'll Go

" I can't believe it!"

We were talking for about 4 hours and it was the longest conversation I've had in three years. And my first friend, too. I don't mean in high school, I mean in ever. Linus is cool and told me a lot about himself. 

" So yeah I'm a sophomore, I recently made 15, and yup I'm pretty gay." Linus was so comfortable with himself. Although I keep a cool head about most things, I'm honestly afraid to try most things. Forget having a first kiss; I haven't even dated anyone. And then he likes guys it must be hard on him.

"You're worried about me aren't you," Linus said scanning over my face. " I told you to stop reading my emotions it's annoying." It honestly wasn't but I felt like he was reading my mind almost. He told me how he's had so much practice reading emotions that he can tell what they're thinking based on how they're feeling. That's really helpful but I bet it gets really boring.

"I can't help it. I can tell that you haven't shown this much emotion in front of anyone before. You don't have a lot of friends do you?" Tch! He has the nerve to try and make me feel bad about myself. "Calm down, bud I wasn't trying to make you feel down at all," he laughed as he waved his hands in defense. " I just told you to stop reading my emotions!" I grabbed the nearest pillow and struck him as hard as I could. " Hey don't get mad 'cause you're embarrassed,"  he said grabbing a pillow and retaliating.

" You're still doing it!"

" Yeah, so what?"

" Linus I swear I'm gonna hurt you."

" How? You just met me?"

" I don't care,"  I yelled as I went in for another attack but stumbled on my discarded clothes that I left on the floor and slipped falling on top of him. Damn laundry! I wouldn't have landed on him but I guess his stupid football reflexes caused him to jump at the opportunity to catch me. Damn Jock! We hit the floor of my bedroom and I have never been more thankful that I asked my parents to give me the room with the carpet. I began to worry if I had hurt him but I probably shouldn't have considering he takes hits all the time. I looked up and once again...

Damn those green eyes!

" If you wanted me to take you out then you should've just asked." Is he seriously this cocky. There was no way that I was going on my first date with him. Or a guy for that matter. I'm not homophobic it's just that I haven't gone out with anyone and am not sure what I might even like. I just want to find out for myself y'know? So why am I so flustered right now. I didn't notice it until it was too late but he had snaked his arms around my waist and it only made my face more heated. What the hell is this. Why am I so embarrassed? First friendship problems or first relationship problems.

" I- uh. You didn't have to catch me."

" But I wanted to," he said his voice now in a husky manner. It made me listen because it was so low.

"What's.......happening," I questioned in a lower voice that I felt like I should repeat considering how low I said it.

" You tell me." 

"I'm- not sure." Annnnnnnnnnd

BAM! He had kissed me! Like on the lips! I hadn't believed it but it was happening. I didn't know what to do. It's not like I can kiss back. Can I? If I do how do I do it. Okay, you've seen enough rom-coms to know what not to do. So just close your eyes. And move your lips against his right? I felt the heat in my cheeks rise once again as he smiled into the kiss. His lips were soft and although he was fairly skinny, he was strong and he held me close deepening the kiss. I think I'm getting the hang of this kissing thing. I felt his grip loosen and his lips relax.

He leaned back down and laid on the floor his hands still around my waist. "So is that a yes?" I was confused about what to say. If you kiss someone does that mean you have to go on a date with them? I would have to tell my parents, wouldn't I? Oh crap! Are they even homophobic? Well, they support me in everything else I do. 

" I don't know. I've never been on a date. And you kinda just were my first kiss so," I said unsure of how to reply to what had just happened. " I am? Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. I just read the situation and I thought you were-" He just stared at me now. I guess it's his emotions that are out of whack now. " I should go. It's the weekend and your parents will probably be home soon," he said frantically getting up making sure not to hurt me. He didn't even remember what day it was." Actually, it's Thursday and...I live alone." He just looked at me with what I think was hope. " Oh, so you live alone? That's really cool." He was nervous and I could tell. I figured it out but he interrupted my thought. " Look you don't have to go on a date with me I just thought that you might want to." I thought about whether I would actually go through with this.

" Sure I'll go," I said giving it little thought.

" Really?! Uh- I mean that's great," He said happily. I thought I'd end up hating him.

But this is a lot more fun than I thought. 

"But we're not going out!" 

" Yeah, I know. First date is all. You won't regret this Leon I promise. Today's Thursday so how about this Saturday?" 

" Sure. I'll be here I guess." And with that, he left. My first date. I'm both excited and scared. 

That's normal right?