Jealousy [r.t + reader]

CHAPTER THREE⚠

"Eddie, Im sorry"

re·gret

[a feeling of sadness, repentance, or disappointment over something that has happened or been done]

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His body pushed against yours as your lips conected. Yet, the only thing you could think of was how Richie kissed you. How his would always make your heart skip a beat.
Eddies did nothing. Not even a spark.
You thought you liked this. You didnt.
You still weren't over him.
The only thing running through your mind was that familiar chocolate haired boy that made your heart melt.

You kissed Eddie one last time before pressing your hands against his chest pushing him off of you.
He sat back, his lips swoolen, his haor a mess, a confused look on his face.

"Eddie, im sorry. Its just i-i cant"
He looks at you with sympathetic eyes and nodds his head.
"I understand, it's okay"
Eddie places a hand on your shoulder to reasure you.
"Friends?" You ask hopeful.
Eddie was one of your best friends besides Richie back in 7th grade.
You didnt want one stupid kiss ruining that for you.

"Friends" Eddie repeated.
"Now, i have to go or my mom will flip" he said as he sits up turning towards your front door.

A vpice inside your head screamed at you to tell him,
DO IT
DO IT
DO IT!

You opened your mouth, threatening to let the words escape.
But nothing came out as you were to scared to say it.
"fuck it...I still love him Eddie"
His head turned so quick it was almost imposible.
"What?" He asked begining to inch closer.
"I still love Richie, i mean i knew i wasnt over him but i had thought i stopped loving him a long time ago.... I was so wrong Eds, i still love him, i love his soft features, his big glasses, his soft hair, his smile! Everything Eds!" You blurt out unkowingly. He stares at you in awe as tears flow down your delacate cheeks.
You didnt even realize you were crying.
"Y/n..." Eddie mutters out, not knowing if the words he was thinking would make this situation better or worse. He decided to stay silent.

"I-I dont know what to do, i wake up every morning and i see him, i see him and i miss him. Why did he have to leave me!" You sob, colapsing onto the couch, throwing your head into your hands.

You were broken without him.
You were broken without Richie "Trashmouth" Toizer. The 17 year old boy with a broken family and a broken heart.

The boy who lived next door to the girl with so many problems, she couldn't count them on her own fingers.

"Why do i still love him Eds! The night i needed him most he wasnt there! He left me to drown in my own tears!" You scream.

"What do you mean?" Eddie asked, sitting down on the couch beside your limp body.

"The day my dad died, he wasnt there..."

Eddie was speachless, he knew that if he talked he would end up making some mistake so he stayed silent.

"Some times i dont even know what im doing...." You said lifting your tear stained face your of your hands.
" I need to be alone.... Ill call you later Eds..." You say, sinking down even further into the couch. Eddie only nodded his head, he understood and knew that you needed space.
He made his way out the front door wothout saying a word, leaving you in the sombre atmosphereto be alone with your thoughts.

AUTHOR'S NOTE:
So! Im sorry this is such a short chapter but i really wanted to update for you!
Also thank you for all the positive coments on this story!