Skyler

ENTRY

'' Truth always hurts..'' said Mr. Johnson while closing his book. ''..and sometimes you just need to accept it the way it is.'' I was agree with that. It was true that truth is hurtfull most of the time and accepting it was way better than denying to yourself.

Because denying is just keep giving you damages which is directly to your soul and it is even worse than physical damage. Because eventually physical damage's ache will stop but in spiritually you will always feel it.

Oh wait.. that was a really quick entry. Let me introduce myself. I am Skyler. I am 16 years old and you are about read my weird story. Not really weird actually. I believe that a lot of girls lived through the same things like me. And if you are reading this maybe you are the one of them.

I never felt like I will fit in. I was always ashamed of my feelings, reactions,behaviors,talking,appearance.. This list can go pretty long but shortly; myself. I do not even remember if I talked a guy like other normal girls. When I tried to talk them I was starting to sweating and acting way awkward. Well if you have ever lived that you are not alone. And you know that that's a really small part of your problems.

I had family issues all the time. If I try to explain.. I really cannot because even myself trying to understand still. Like no clue how my mom suddenly gets angry to me and starts to yelling and it ends with me grounding.

In the other hand I have really annoying big brother. Yes nice guess! He is the favourite kid of the family and well yeah I am the less loved child. Actually I am getting angry about it. How could you separate your children? But then when i think about it.. If I do not have a respect to myself or love myself, how could I wait those from another people?

First I always blamed the people around me. And now.. the only guilty is myself for me because what I think now is what you react is more important than what you struggle with. I know sometimes it is not always like that. Whatever you do somethings not in your hands but mostly they are in your hands.

If I come to my appearance to be honest I have a really nice body and I got compliments about that- even sometimes I do not get in words I can understand that from looks- You could tell me tall. I have brown hair and brown eyes. Pretty normal so far.

The only thing I do not like myself is my nose. Even though it is not that big or something, mine was just a obsession. Like most of the people I am not really happy with my nose.

And I have a really bad habbit. When I am stressed, got sad or angry..or bored, I am popping my pimples. So I have also obsession with my acnes. I know it is disgusting but I know you do that do. C'mon admit it!

Well I am an usual teenager that tries to survive. And welcome to my world's entrance.

*HELLO GUYS THANKS FOR READING IF YOU CAME TO END!! LOVEE YAA XOXO ENGLISH IS NOT MY NATIVE LANGUAGE SO IF THERE ANY MISTAKES SORRY ABOUT THAT. IF YOU LIKE AND COMMENT I WILL BE SO HAPPY muck;*