Send ✔️

1~ Send

I collapsed.

I knew I shouldn't have pressed the button.

That bright blue Send button.

I told her to kill herself.

I never actually thought she would.

But here I am, by her side.

Her dead side.

The lifeless girl I once called Annie Bananie.

Her chocolate brown hair,

Her joyful brown eyes.

Her lively smile that made all the pain go away.

Her bubbly personality.

Well, it was bubbly.

Nearly a year ago, her depression grew.

It scared me.

She wouldn't eat.

She wouldn't sing.

She shut me out along with everyone else.

She no longer wanted to spend time with me.

Our parents let her be.

They didn't touch her.

They listened to her and let her be.

But it wasn't what she really wanted.

She wanted the attention.

She wanted to go back to her old self.

But she couldn't find a way.

Last night, she asked me to help her commit suicide.

I said no.

She pleaded, but I slammed the door in her face and returned to my room.

She sent me one last text.

She told me to tell her to kill herself.

I wasn't going to.

I wasn't ready to lose my only other sibling.

But something told me to have her let the pain go.

So I hit send.

Ten minutes later, I heard a crash.

I looked outside my bedroom window.

She had jumped out of her window.

She really did it.

She had listened to her words.

The words I sent her.

She had killed herself.

I never should have read that text.

I never should have typed those words.

I never should have even listened.

But I did.

I killed my sister.

If I could go back to the past, I would.

If I could erase this whole thing, I would.

If I could have stopped myself from hitting Send, I would.