Overwhelmed

Kida, my best friend and I, already late for the first day of school. Getting into school after 8:15, we ran down the stairs to our history class, seeing our classmates eyes looking at us, as if we were freaks. As we were taking our seats, a new student walked in. After that no one was gluing their eyes on Kida and I. Now, all the eyes were on him. Yes, you heard right him, he was the cutest guy I have ever seen, in my life. It turns out, his name was, Nick Smith, he had just moved here from Britain. So he still had that nice accent which made him way more attractive. I saw all the girls, basically drooling over him, so I pretended I wasn't into him.  Unfortunately it turned out that Kida was one of those girls who was drooling over him!

"Kida are you really into him, he's not that cute girl," I told her.

"Girl what! He's so freaking hot like, I CAN'T EVEN," she told me.

"Yeah right, he's probably some spoiled rich boy,"  I told her with an attitude.

"I doubt it, but whatever floats your boat sweetie," she told me while still drooling all over Nick.

I was starting to hating the fact that Kida was into him. I kept trying to forget about it, but I just couldn't ignore it. It's like, I kept hearing her voice over, and over again in my head. I could feel how attracted she was to him, and IT WAS DRIVING ME INSANE! I could literally feel, how she was feeling towards Nick, and it was making me like Nick even more. I decided I have to push my feelings aside for Kida. So I let Kida try and have a relationship with him, since she's never been in one before and is desperate for attention.

    "Alright Nick, you'll be sitting next to one of our school role models," he told Nick.

    "Okay sir, and where is he?" asking him with a calm voice.

    " Oh no, it's not a him Mr. Smith, it's a her," Mr. Wilson said laughing.

    "Of course my bad, and where is she," he said embarrassed.

    " Inanna please raise your hand so Mr. Smith, here could know where you are," said Mr. Wilson laughing.

Instantly every girls eye's came at me like bullets, my face of course, turning all red.

Out of everyone in the class it had to be me, I said to myself.

I looked up and saw Nick just staring at me, I raised my hand and said

"I'm Inanna,"

He came walking to me and said

"I knew it was going to be you, since everyone was staring at you."

I looked at Nick's schedule, and we had every single class together, even study hall. I could sense Kida getting annoyed and frustrated with me being able to talk to Nick. After history it was chemistry, and we started to talk to each other during classes and out of classes. He told me he was nervous to come to school, but then, but then because of me, talking to him and keeping him out of drama, he felt like he belonged. Even though they forced me into talking to him and showing him around. Otherwise I would have never even spoken to him. A few weeks pass, maybe even months, and we went to lunch after study hall. Kids and I have different study halls and mine was closer to the lunchroom, so I would wait for her. As I was waiting for Kida, Nick came up to me and told me so many things I wish I didn't know. Nick told me he's been attracted to me and he wants to get to know me better outside of school. All I could think about was Kida and how this would make her feel.Out of nowhere, my chest started to hurt like if my bones were breaking.I looked at Kida and saw this sad face, just staring at me. I was  feeling Kida's heartbreaking, that's why my chest was hurting so much. I can't believe that this was happening to me, what I was doing to her. I felt like a horrible friend.

After school Kida and I  had a job at a restaurant as hosts. As soon as the bell rang, I ran to work not even thinking of taking the bus, to get there quicker.  While running to the restaurant  I was making up a speech on what to tell Kida. I got to the restaurant and I shouted,

"I don't like him, and if you do I won't try to be with him" I yelled at her. 

"It's okay I feel so much better now knowing you don't like him," she said.

  I had the feeling Nick didn't like Kida, so I talked to him trying to hook them up, and every time I brought it up he said "If that's what will make you happy."  I had another friend named Noah Michaels, and he would always act really strange whenever Kida was around. After I arranged a date for Kida and Nick, Noah comes up to me asking if I could set him and Kida up, because he was in love with her. I told him about her and Nick and I felt his pain. My chest got really warm and I could barely breath. That's when it started to get hard for me to breath and  I could hear his heart just shattering. He played it cool saying "Oh well, that's fine it's not like I was in love with her," when he told me he was.  

After everything that's been happening, all I was feeling was overwhelmed.  I felt the girls in my school angry and sad because Nick wasn't with them, and I felt Kida in love with Nick and Nick feeling nothing for her. I felt Noah in love and heartbroken because of Nick and Kida were together. Most importantly, I felt my feeling being hurt and being in love with Nick not knowing what to do. Being scared to try and be with him without having people hate her and hurting her best friends. The next day after my mental breakdown in the bathroom, Kida came up to me saying she thinks that Nick loves someone else. She asked me to do an impossible task. I had to go up to Nick and ask him what was wrong  with him. After my shift me and Kida went to Nick's house, so I could see what's wrong with their relationship. Kida wanting it to just be me and Nick, she went to the bathroom but really, she was in the dining room listening to everything.

    "So, Nick I heard that you and Kida are having a hard time," I said.

    "Well it's not her, it's me," he said

    "What's that supposed to mean," I asked

    "I tried to be with her to make you happy but it made me feel horrible, I can't be with someone I don't like," he said

    "Oh, I see, well maybe you should tell Kida that," I told him in a quiet voice.

    "Yeah I will, but this means I can't be with the girl I want to be with," Nick said in a sad tone.

    "Well maybe talk to the girl you want to be with and talk to Kida about it," I said.

    "She won't understand, and it's not fair I can't be with the girl I really like," He said almost yelling.

    "Well that's not my fault, don't yell at me," I yelled at him

    Before I knew it he leaned in and started kissing me! While kissing him all I could think about was this is all a dream, gladly it wasn't, but sadly it was all reality. All I heard was Kida slamming the door of the house and walking out. My chest again suffocating me. I was running out of air and it was hard to breath. I managed to run after her.

"Kida stop! I'm so sorry I didn't mean for this to happen. Please stop!"

She didn't even turn around to look at my face. She just drove off.The smoke of her car hitting me like a thunderbolt. I lost my best friend that day.  Nick and I kept hanging out even though I knew I couldn't date him. In the hallways I would see Kida and see the face of betrayal. She hated me, and I didn't blame her. I was a horrible friend to her.  Months went by without me and Kida talking. I finally went up to her saying

"It's fine if you don't want to be my friend, but it was not my fault he kissed me, yes I like him yes he likes me, but we're not dating because I don't want to hurt you again,"

She started crying and said she was sorry for being so selfish and that she doesn't hate me. I felt all that negative energy leave my body. I felt like a fresh new person. My life was now perfect. I have my best friend back  and a boyfriend, and I set Noah and Kida up together and before I knew it they were already dating. Everything was going great. Or so I thought.

To Be Continued....