Find you

a new start

Me: okay, Hii guys! How are y'all? I'm great! I've punched someone in the face 10 minutes ago and now I'm sitting in the office... (No, I'm not fanon Keith) while I was 'cooling down' I began to write this, cuz apparently, it is acceptable for me after punching someone to cut class so I could take a deep breath. Go school! This is a long chapter, so I can't promise that futer chapter will be of the same length. Anyway, the teacher is coming back so I'll upload this when I have wifi. Wish me luck! Enjoy reading~

Stupid.
That is what I am, stupid for thinking I could find you,
Stupid for thinking that you would find me.
Stupid for falling for someone so far out of my reach.

You are nothing more than an illusion,
I thought I had for once in my life a person who would love me for who I am,

A person who I could trust,
But I should have known, that you were too good to excist.

I wanted to build up a life with you, live it to the fullest,

But I forgot a few things.

The people around me, who love me, who cared for me and I left them one for one, just so I could be with you.

But like I said, you were only an illusion

And now I woke up.

Alone.

It all started when I saw you for the first time, your eyes locked in mine and for the first time I saw colours, an ocean of colours where I drowned in. Stars around your iris, those who light up when you laugh.

A sky full of freckles that were spread across your cheeks and nose, I've always loved the stars, but then I saw the constellations of your freckles, I became obsessed...

A smile where people would kill for to, full of excitement, joy, one that lightens up the room even at their darkest moments. I wanted to feel how those lips felt on mine, hoping that the day would come where I could do that.

Strands and bangs of dark golden-brown hair that always found a way to lay in the most ridiculous and impossible directions ever, still it made you look even more beautiful than you already were.

I loved everything about you, I worshipped you.

You looked me in the eye and said my name, at least... I think you said it, cause no matter how hard I concentrate, I can't hear your voice. All I could do was stare in awe. I saw your mouth form another sentence and I knew it was a question.

I was awkward, shy and anxious, not knowing what the question was, I knew that if I said something it would probably be the wrong answer.

You laughed at my silence and all my worries vanished, I forgot how to breath from the moment I saw how your nose wrinkled in the action. The only thing was, I could see you but I never heard your laugh.

However, I noticed that I also was laughing, for the first time I was laughing and it wasn't a fake one, all because of you.

You made the first move and lend me your hand, I panicked, was I sweating? Was I shaking? I felt like I was another teenage girl with a crush and to be honest? It didn't matter, I was with you.

I hesitated but took your hand anyway, you looked at me in surprise and maybe, maybe I had read the air wrong? When I wanted to let go of your hand and I tried, I really did, but moving was impossible.