*trigger warning* because idk how this is going to end up but this is going to get deep and personal and it's just me ranting. I'm sorry in advance.
I'm posting this on here and i might delete it later so.
I constantly feel like I have no one to talk to and if I do talk to someone I don't want to be a burden and put all of my problems on them because everybody has their own problems to deal with.
So recently my life has just been tumbling down hill and i feel like it's never going to stop.
I literally scare myself because i constantly say im going to kill myself and it's scary because i know how and i easily could and i know i won't but you never know..
I currently have a girlfriend and we've only been dating for like 3 weeks but i feel like i don't deserve her. I want to break up with her. Not because I don't like her but I have so much stress going on that I just can't deal with a girlfriend or any type of relationship. She means so much to me but I know I can't help her with her problems and she can't help me with mine. She's an amazing girl but I feel like I just need a break. I don't want to keep this ongoing and it hurt more in the future. I just wouldn't know how to do it because I still like her so much but i just can't anymore.
School has been actual hell recently. I feel like I'm so far behind (i'm not) and I feel so stupid and I just want to be homeschooled again because my life was so much more easier then.
I feel like i'm losing my friends and they're all drifting away. And when I feel as if someone's drifting away I pull myself away from them instead. Like not in a rude way but because I feel that'd it just be easier.
There's so much more and these are just dumb, stupid, and small reasons but idk i feel like i'm losing myself and i can't do it anymore.
