His Mute Mate

ch.16

"Hey it's ok Winter look at me" I say gently and slowly she looks up at me but still doesn't meet my eyes. We're gonna get through this you wanna know how I know because your one of the people I've ever met with all the messed up stuff you've had to go through and yet your still sure you might slip and fall but that's why I'm here to help you get back up because I love you" I say sincerely I'm gonna help her get better and make sure she knows that shes loved. I watch a tear falls from her face and on to her lap and quickly wrap my arms her in a tight hug. "It's ok baby I love you" I say again my wolf whimpering in my head seeing Winter so visibly sad and hurt is killing him. "Ok so besides that you are going to have to continue to see the therapist after you leave but you'll only have to go twice a week unless you feel you need more then twice a week ok" Doctor Rhodes says and I pull away from Winter so she can respond but stay hold her hand. Winter gives her a thumbs up and she tells her that they will be bringing lunch soon then she leaves. ' Where's Pete why isn't he here ' I hear Winters voice echo around in my head it almost calms my wolf down hearing her voice but he knows by the sound of it that she's not ok. "Oh I forgot to call him he went to work or something give me a second" I say and I pull out my phone texting Pete that Winters awake he responds back saying he'll be here in five minutes. "He's on his way we've both been so worried" I say feeling some of my sadness from earlier come back. "Why did you do Winter I tried to ask Pete if he had any idea why but he said he didn't want to talk about it" I say remembering when I had asked Pete while we were waiting for a doctor to tell if she was ok or not. ' I am got a letter from my mom that said why I was a wolf and Pete wasn't and I found out some news that really didn't want to know ' she says and I nod giving her hand a squeeze. ' I'm adopted but not officially my mom had um offered to take care of me until my real parents could they were only about 16 when they had me and couldn't handle the stress, but um then they died and so my mom and dad were practically forced to keep me and I was probably just a burden to them Pete didn't know until I told him the night before I got here ' she says her voice breaking during some parts. ' I guess at that moment everything just crashed down ' she continues I lean over and wipe away a stray tear with my free hand and give her another bone crushing hug. "I'm sure Pete doesn't care if your him blood sister or not you guys grew up together well for the most part" I say and she nods.

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Winter

I grip my head in pain as a painful shoots across my forehead causing me to cringe, maybe it's because of the blood loss but that was a week ago. Why would my head be hurting now? Honestly I don't know. Dean and Pete left a few hours ago we hung out for about four hours after Pete got here and they would have stayed longer but visiting hours were over and they already gave them an extra hour. "How are you feeling Winter I got your dinner" one of the night nurses I assume says as she walks in with fake happiness. I give her a thumbs up and she leaves. Honestly I don't know how I feel I'm numb and don't know weather to be relieved or disappointed that I'm still alive. The only thing that's letting me know that I'm still alive is the steady beep of my heart monitor and the surging pain in my head. Gah I've never had a headache this bad it's even worse then one I had before I was hospitalized. It's weird right I never used to get headaches often I would maybe get them once or twice every couple of months, but never this bad. I don't know maybe I'm worrying to much and my depression is causing them I don't even know if that's how it works. Your a failure and a disappointment now you couldn't even end you misriable life. Dean was hoping you would die praying that he wouldn't have to take care of you anymore but you had to wake up. I thought that voice would be gone by now why isn't it I did everything I even landed myself in a hospital. Oh not everything your still breathing. Please why can't you just leave me alone. I can't even call for help because well I'm sure you know why by now besides it's not like anyone would care. I can't believe you failed at the one thing you wanted to do maybe that's all you can do fail. Please just leave me alone go away I don't want to listen to you shut up. My heart monitor starts beeping faster as I start to panic. Suddenly I see a girl who looks like me only she has a darker look to her. Aren't you gonna say hello she say and I realise she has the same voice as in my head. I've given that voice a place in my life a visible body and it makes it so much more real. Go away your not real go. The beeping gets faster and faster suddenly doctors are rushing in surrounding me. I'm as real as you make me I won't disappear until you have enough control to make but I don't think that will happen anytime soon your so weak the girl says and I start crying. "Winter calm down what's going on" one if the doctors say but I can't comprehend what he's saying as I'm to focused on the girl. Who are you why won't you leave me alone why I'm you well mostly but you can just call me Alex if it makes you feel better. I feel I sharp pain in my arm and then I start to feel calm and sleepy the world becomes clear and Alex disappears. My eyes fall form my sudden tiredness and I give in falling asleep.

When I wake up Doctor Rhodes is waiting with a worried expression and Dean is sitting next to her with a worried expression. "Winter honey what happened last night the night doctors said they had to sediate you" she asks and I nod I don't remember much only having a headche and the panicing then doctors and lots of them. My memories are just snipits and I don't know why. ' I don't remember what happened ' I sign and Dean translates for me. "Ok well what do you remember" she asks in a calming voice I tell her what I remember and Dean of course translates the whole thing he's getting better at sign language. About a minute after I'm done signing them everything my memories come rushing back. I remember the voice coming to life. Her looking just like me. Telling me to call her Alex and the doctors coming in. Lastly I remember her disapearing. "Winter are you ok you look a little shaken up" Doctor Rhodes says and I just fake a smile and give her a thumbs up. Dean sends me a pointed look and then I hear his voice in my head ' we'll talk later I know you probably don't trust her but please trust me' he pleads and I nod. The doctor looks at me a little weirdly before brushing it off and pointing towards the tray of fresh food. I haven't eaten since I got I don't need to and I don't think I can stomach it must smelling it makes me feel sick and like I'm gonna throw up. They surprisingly haven't noticed that I throw the food away before they come back to take the trays away. "Ok well I'll be back later" she says and leaves.

"Winter are you ok last night I could feel your panic I tried to mind link you but it was blocked please tell me what happened" he beggs worry clear in his face. Don't tell him about me he won't care Alex appears standing next to him just as I'm about to tell him what happened. ' I just had a nightmare about um Josh and back when all that happened' I lie but he seems to believe it as he frowns and comes closer to me. "He won't get near you ever again I promise I won't let him hurt you" he kisses my forehead and I smile up him loving the feeling he brings to my numb body. Don't trust him he whishes Josh would come and take you away from him then he wouldn't have to deal you. Alex laughs in my ear as she says this. Why did she have become something that I can see it makes everything she says so much more believable and real. I became real because your weak and cant even control your own thoughts. I guess shes right but what did I do to deserve all this. Simple you were born if you weren't born everybody's life would be so much better. She right she's always right why does she have to be right. "Winter are you listening" Dean says loudly in my ear pulling me from my conversation with Alex and making her disappear .' Oh um no sorry what were you saying ' I ask sheepishly. " Well I have good news Doctor Rhodes said I could take you home long as I keep and eye on you and make sure you eat and go to therapy but either you'll have to stay with me or I'll have to stay with you" he says and I nod thank god I don't don't like hospitals but then again I don't think anyone does. ' whichever you prefer is fine with me' I say. "Well my mom's gonna be back from her trip in about two days so do you wanna stay at my house" he asks and I nod kinda glad that his dad won't be there he scares me and there's just something off about him.

"Ok well get ready cause I already signed you so we can leave whenever" he says I nod and try to stand up which I fail at. Ok so maybe staying in a bed for almost nine days isn't good for you. "Are you ok" Dean asks helping me ' yeah just need to get used to walking again ' I say and he nods this I'm when I try to walk I actually can. "Oh I brought you some clothes" he hands me a pair of skinny jeans and my black veil brides hoodie I thank him and go to the bathroom to change. When I get out Dean is sitting on the bed waiting for me "ok come on let's go" he says and he grabs my hand causing butterflies to fill my stomach flying around. You'd think I'd get use to the tingles being with Dean causes but since I'm new to whole mate wolf thing -well not really it's been awhile since I found out and I kinda am one I just haven't shifted yet. We go I to the waiting room and a few nurses and doctors smile at me whishing me good luck other just stare like they know I'm ready for this, and the fact that they don't think I can make it kinda saddens me. We got out to parking g lot and get into Dean's car of course and drive over to his house.

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Hello did you guys like the chapter it was kinda longer then usual but I hope you enjoyed reading and that I didn't bore you. I'm still not back for good but I'm trying to update every chance I get. Again I'm so sorry about this

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