No Strings (Strings Series 1)

Epilogue

I know Sasha wanted the words from me.. I just can say it personally dahil hindi ko alam kung paano. The fuck! I'm not used of this I love you or mahal kita, ekkk--ekkk-ekk! But in a long time we've been together-- yung tipong kasal nalang ang kulang. Minahal ko talaga ng buo si Sasha.

She really was an angel, trying to help a falling beast and she did her best.

Si Sasha ang naging buhay ko. Si Sasha ang bumuo at nagpuno nang kung ano man na kulang sa akin. She taught me to love without hesitations and limits. She made me feel alive and complete.. She made me feel that I have family -- and that is her.

--Mahal mo na ako noh?

--Ano speechless ka? Tuwing tatanungin kita hindi ka makasagot?magreply ka Luther!kung wala ka naman feelings why need to continue this?ano? Fuck fuck lang tayo?

Sunod sunod na text ni Sasha.. Maybe.. It was the right time to tell her that I love her so damn much.. Bakit pa kasi kailangan sabihin? Hindi paba enough na naging matino ako para sa kanya? Diba action speaks louder than words? Sinunod ko lang naman yung saying na yun, e.

Napakamot ako ng ulo ng nag failed yung "I Love You" message ko sa kanya. I sighed.

Pumunta ako sa Facebook to post a picture of us I took earlier. I posted it with the fucking cheesy caption. That was so not me.. Pero kapag nagmahal ka pala, nagiging baduy ka talaga!

The post was trending.. Sunod sunod ang nag- message sa akin kaya hindi ko malamn kung buburahin ko ba o ano. Nakita na kaya ni Sasha? Hindi pa niya nila-like e.

Even so-- I composed a message for her.
I was so nervous typing a message for her confessing my real feelings.

To Sasha..

I can't tell it to you personally.. So.. I know my actions weren't enough for you to believe in me Sasha.. I was always reserved while you want the words. We've been together for years but you never hear me say this.. I was just so scared to give you the power to break me. You made me believe the thing that I don't want to believe in. You made me feel the thing that I'm so scared to feel. Pero, tangina! Eto-- I'm giving you my heart.. It's up to you how will going to make it or break it. Either way, it's going to be yours anyways.
But believe me or not, you're not just my favorite.. Mahal kita.

After I sent the message.. Nag-ayos ako to go out. Me-- telling my feelings to Sasha sent shiver down to my spine. I need to breathe. Para akong bata na nagtapat ng feelings sa crush niya na biglang nahiya.

After bath. Biglang may kumatok. Kinabahan ako bigla sa hindi malaman na dahilan. I don't know pero kabang kaba ako.

"Pa," kumunot ang noo ko ng bumungad si papa sa akin. He was with some men and a mid fourty's man standing behind him.

"He's Luther." nanginig ang boses ni papa. Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano ang nangyayari.

"Son," the man said full of-- what the fuck? Son?

"Pa, ano 'to?" tanong ko sa kanya. Walang emotion si papa pero titig na titig siya sa akin. Wala din lumalabas sa kanya kaya gulong gulo ako.

"I'm your father," the man said sternly. Luminga linga pa ako sa paligid para maghanap ng camera. Is this a joke? Nasa worlds funniest video ba kami?

"What are you saying?" nakaramdam na naman ako iritasyon. Ano yon? Biglang may dadating at sasabihin anak ako? What the hell?

"Get him-"

"Give him time, Yoseff." papa interrupted the man..

"You had him.. But he's my son."

Bumuntong hininga si papa ng bigla nalang ako hinila ng mga guards ng kasama ni Yossef.