Mute ~Josh Dun x reader~

6/10

I feel like a six out of ten
I wake up. Sun going through my eyelids, hearing silence. Nothing. I try to lift my self up but I fail. I have no energy. I have nothing. I stay in the bed sheets and just let my mind wonder. I'm staring at a wall. And not getting up. I'm hungry. But I don't want to go get food. Cause what's the point. What's the point of all of this. Nothing. Josh doesn't matter to me. Neither dose dan,Tyler nobody. Cause I'm alone. I hear the door bell ring but I decided not to answer it. It's probably somebody leaving a package or people telling me something about a church. My mind won't get out of the dark side of my head. My heart racing.warm tears sliding down eyes. Arms sore. Chest feeling heavy. I feel guilty. But what am I supposed to do. Say sorry. I still feel hurt. Saying sorry.oh wait I can't. Cause I'm mute. Why would someone date a werid,dumb, mute girl like me....I just wish my
Mind can
Shut
Up.
I don't want this feeling anymore. I just want to feel wanted.i want to have a hug.
Someone telling me it's okay things are going to get better but I know things are not going to get better. Because when
Something good happens to me something bad ends up balling I can't stay happy. I don't want to live. But I want to see my future children my future grandchildren my family. I decide to turn the other way. I see the sun reflecting off the trees to the window. I don't feel anything anymore. I decided to try to lift myself up. I did it I lift myself up. I check my phone. Josh keeps calling and dan keeps calling. I go to my book. I see things josh wrote. I feel my chest get heavy. A lump in my throut. I try to push it down. But it won't go down. My eyes start to get watery.blurryness is all I see. Blurry face. My blurry face is attacking and I don't want it. I really don't

Tyler POV
I gave you everything you wanted. Fame.love. BUT YOU ARE STiLL ALOnE
"I'M NOT ALONE SHUT UP" I pull my hair feeling my head aching. Why is this happening. Who else is hurting I need to know. Please leave me alone. Please please I'm begging "LEAVE ME ALONE"
YOu ARe AlONE
A L O N E
NO IM NOT. I shake. Going back and forth Jenna is out josh is out. The only person is y/n. I put on my jacket. And start running to her house having my thought keep going. I'm running out of breath but I keep running. These thoughts won't shut up. I start to ring her doorbell. I noticed her door is unlocked. I decided to go in. I see the bathroom light on. I hear the faucet water running. I hear it stop. And hear the door unlock. I see her jump with red puffy eyes. I hug her and she starts crying on my shoulder. And I start crying on her. "They won't stop". She gets a paper from her room and write "who?" The words were so lightly and soft on the paper "I don't know. My thoughts. I don't know anything any more I'm a goner" she writes softly in the paper "Blurryface" why blurryface I thought "because we can't see him/her. And are demons have faces we just can't see them" I looked at her on how she knew I was thinking "you said it out loud" she writes I chuckle I hug her "so you and josh" her smile turns into a frown she
Has tear running down her face. She takes deep. Breaths. "Oh-uh sorry I didn't mean
to bring that back up" "it's okay" she writes...Josh needs to treat her right. Before someone swoops her up before josh.

So this is shotty yas also I'm proud of dan uploading his video Daniel and depression. I cried through the whole video yay. Anyways hope you guys enjoyed this ❤️❤️❤️❤️ bye guys