When I start a new journey
I never thought people would dislike me
Without knowing me better
They started to think that
I am no good for them
I am nothing to them
They will only come to me when
They want something that benefit them
I don't mind if they want something from me
I don't mind if they're being nice to me once
I don't mind that
But
What hurt me the most is
They dislike me then expect me to be nice to them
To give something they want from me
This is so fuck up
Because what they did to me
Remind me of the past
Remind me of how I was not good enough to be with certain people
Remind me of how I wasn't fit in a group of people
Remind me of how weak I was
Remind me of how lonely I am
Then the same feeling from the past
Start to play with me
I would feel sad over anything
Later on
I realized I was crying so hard in the bed
I'm trying to keep it low because I don't want people to know
But I couldn't
