The Next Day 8:57am - Kiara
You're love is something I crave, Something I need. Baby , without you; I'm incomplete. The way you sway your hips & the way you lick ya' lips , baby you're a 10. A straight dime piece. We've been through some shit. Some real shit. I love you though. On some real shit , I love you.
I came across the poem Santo wrote for me in 10th grade in my attic. It made me laugh because he didn't even rhyme. But it still brings a smile across my face because he said he loves me. Last night I guess him & Paizlen broke up & he blamed me.
Flashback (Night before)
"Hey Santo , what's up?" I asked.
"Bruh , me & Paiz broke up :(" he told me. What the hell? The sad face isn't even necessary.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because after the shit you told me about her 'being around' i didn't want to catch anything , So I told her to leave & never come back." he told me.
"Why are you making it seem it's my fault tho lol?" I said "lol" because I didn't wanna sound mean.
"Because before I even called you , Her & I were fine. Barely argued. But suddenly when I decide to call you; we start having problems." he said.
"Bye." I said.
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Waking up this morning , I realized that Chresanto has changed; yes, he has. And I have changed also. Me forgiving him was a huge step. Because I could have been stubborn and said "Fuck you , fuck it. I'm done with everything" But I didn't. I forgave him & told him I loved him! How am the one to blame for this shit? If your friend's girlfriend was a hoe, wouldn't you tell them? He should be fucking grateful I said anything to him about Ms.Paizlen Greenfield.
You're probably wondering how I know Paizlen so well , right? Well in 8th grade , I had a boyfriend named Travis Monroe. He was cute. Brown skin little boy we dated until 9th grade and one day , i was waiting for him by his locker after school , and he wouldn't show up. Waited there for 2 hours. My best friend Lizeth told me to call him. And I did...
"Ooh Daddy , Harder."
"You like that?"
"I love it."
"Take this daddy dick."
Was all I heard. First off , his dick-game wasn't ever that damn serious. Like bish whet? Just stop.
And he tried "explaining". Explain my ass. I haven't heard for him since. I don't even see him around school anymore. And when Paizlen got pregnant , she left and got on Independent Studies.
Fuck them both.
That's why I wanted to aware Chresanto. But he seems like he doesn't even give a shit & like it's all my fault.
Uh, no.
The words "We are over" came out of his mouth. . . Not mine.
After that episode yesterday; I don't wanna have ANYTHING to do with Chresanto, until he has enough balls to apologize.
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Chresanto
I'm just waking up; and usually I have a "Goodmorning Hunny' text from Kiara.
But this morning is slightly different. Everything feels different.
Nobody laying next to me.
No-one texting me "Goodmorning".
Nobody making breakfast.
Damn, I lost everything. My everything.
Last night; while texting Kiara , I was just mad. But, I'm not apologizing. If she didn't tell me "Yeah, your girlfriend gets around" "She's known" Like duh! It is her fault. As a nigga I don't want no STD's. So , maybe I could've worded it differently. But apologizing is not gonna happen. She shouldn't have never said no shit like that to me.
Do I blame her? Yes.
Period. End of discussion.
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Paizlen
I'm waking up now; laying next to my big sexy. King.
Yes, I know he has a girlfriend , but if he's layed up with me then she's not that damn important huh?
After last night , I was sleeping on a bus stop bench. What he did to me was fucked up; but I understand. I'm not really trippin'. At the end of the day , God gives you signs. And I personally think Chresanto was just a sign that I need to leave him alone. I'm a pretty girl. I could have anyone I want.
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Y'all remember who King is?
Thanks for commenting guys.
xoxo
Jasmyn
