dance into my arms ❧ hyungwonho

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Love. That was all Hoseok ever wanted. He wanted someone he could trust, someone who would listen to him when he needed to vent, someone who would care for him when his anxiety kicked in. He needed someone who would cuddle him, kiss him, and most of all, be with him.

Yes, Hoseok was a needy person. 

He could hardly function without some love in his life. Of course, his roommate Hyunwoo knew this, and he did everything he could to comfort Hoseok, but it was only brotherly love. Hoseok needed more.

There were many people Hoseok had dated since entering college. By the end of his second year, everyone knew who he was, either because their friends hooked up with him (which was mainly the case) or because he had directly been in a relationship with them (only true for about thirty or so people). Some people liked him. Others looked to him as some sort of legend. Most people thought he was a dirty whore. Which he wasn't. He was a major softy.

The only reason he formed so many relationships (romantic ones, which, needless to say, failed) was because something never went right. His partner would say that they wanted to see other people, because they were in young, after all. Most of the time, it was because they thought Hoseok wasn't in it for the heartfelt love. Trying to find someone on campus that was willing to view him as their boyfriend and not their fun Friday night date seemed like a lost cause. He didn't know why people wouldn't take him seriously.

Hoseok was almost ready to give up. Almost.

But as always, someone came along and made him change his mind. The last time, it had been some sweet boy he met in the library late one night while finishing up a project. "Shin Hoseok, right? I'm Yoo Kihyun." The other student was attractive, Hoseok was afraid to admit, and he had the nicest smile and the fluffiness pink hair. To top it off, Kihyun offered to help him with his project.

It seemed to be going smoothly for once. Hoseok managed to keep this one for three months until his boyfriend's 'roommate' came back from a semester in France. Only problem was that this 'roommate' was in fact Kihyun's other boyfriend, Lee Minhyuk, whom he had been cheating on with Hoseok (who had been completely unaware of the situation). Needless to say, Minhyuk was furious when he found out. Instead of the peaceful movie night Hoseok had prepared for, he was bombarded with screams and insults being thrown to him and the student laying beside him.

Hoseok watched in horror as Minhyuk packed his belongings and stormed out of the room for good. He was worried for the guy, so he made sure Kihyun knew that what he had done was terrible. Kihyun only tried to justify his actions, but Hoseok would have none of it.

Everything had been going smoothly for once, but as always, it had a messy ending. His relationship with Kihyun brought him even closer to giving up. Maybe he should give up everything. No one cares about me anyways, he thought. I'm only their toy. He was a disposable toy that people used until he broke down.

He was tired of people breaking his heart when all he wanted was for someone to put it back together again.

"Minhyuk says he's fine," Hyunwoo tells Hoseok about two weeks after the incident with Kihyun. Hyunwoo had taken it upon himself to take care of the younger student, and although no official announcements were made, Hoseok was sure they were dating. Probably going to turn out well .

"That's good," he said, although it wasn't good. Not for him, at least. He was still hurting. He was still broken once again.

Hyunwoo walked towards his roommate. "You'll find someone."

"Yeah, I usually do. I'm going to bed. Busy day."

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"Okay, people!" shouted the choreographer. Hoseok looked up from his position in the corner where he was stretching. He was all alone, on account of his bad reputation, but he always looked forward to the dance club. It was the only chance he got to do what he actually wanted because his mother refused to pay dance academy tuition.