In Love With A Screamer

Love Internally

I got to the bathroom and got in the cabinet underneath and search for something I bought a couple of years ago and for just in case and I never thought I would be using this anytime soon but I think I need it I read the directions I can't believe I am about to take a pregnancy test I get out the tiny stick that can determine the rest of my future with Kellin if I am pregnant I would die he doesn't even know if he wants anymore kids and we're not even married this is gonna mess my whole entire plans for myself I was going to wait till I was married before I had kids and I know I will mess up Kellins plans for himself but hopefully I am wrong, now time is my worst enemy as I watch the three minute test I get my phone from my pocket and text Taylor "Taylor... I need you" I text her my phone almost instantly rings she's calling me "Hello?" I answer quietly "What's going on?, is it Kellin?" she asked  "Yeah kinda" I said "Well where is he I am gonna kick him in the balls for doing this to you" she said "Well it's kind of an effort thing" I said "What?, Explain" she said "Taylor I am in the bathroom watching a pregnancy test" I said there was silence "You could be pregnant? how?" Taylor asked "Well when a girl and guy love each other..." I begin saying "Mackenzie that's not what I meant I mean I have a kid for God's sake I mean when did you have sex?" she asked "well one time was my birthday and then a couple times after that" I said then I noticed the test is changing into a answer "it's saying something" I said "What's it say?, I am taking you to the doctors tomorrow if it says positive or negative" she said I leaned over and seen "Taylor it says I am 2 to 3 weeks pregnant, and we had sex 2 weeks ago" I said my mouth was still open in shock and I bet hers was the same "I am picking you up at 10:00am sharp you better be up if not I have a key, don't tell Kellin because it could be wrong just throw it away in the trash bag in your bathroom and tie up the bag" she said "Taylor what am I going to do?" I ask "that could be a false positive we'll find out tomorrow, don't forget 10 am sharp, well I gotta go feed Nathan just calm down love you" she said "love you too" I said then I hung up the phone and threw the test and box into my trash can which was almost full which was perfect so I tied the bag up and take it out of the can and throw it away in my big trash can in the kitchen and put another grocery bag into the can in the bathroom and I wash my hands and I go into the living room and I pray that he doesn't bring me medicine because if I am pregnant I could hurt the baby then I start going through twitter "Getting things for someone special <3" I smiled then I seen tweets about Kellin "Kellin maybe dating someone I hope this girl knows how he hurts girls" I text Kellin "I want to make us Twitter official because these girls are getting on my nerves" I texted him I knew everything I was going to say and especially tag that girl tweet I seen then Kellin texted me back "I suggest not to let the people who don't understand but I kinda did it the other week and you can if you want I am almost done love you  "Thanks babe love you too can't wait to you get back"  I went on twitter as fast and begin typing "Yes I am dating Kellin and he treats me like a princess and I treat him like a prince we're happy and in love so stop the hate, thanks" and I sent the tweet on Kellin page and a couple minutes later he retweeted it and favorited it before I knew it people were retweeting and favoriting it and replying supporting Kellin and I then the door handle shook and Kellin walked in with two grocery bags "Hey sicky" he said I smiled "I didn't get you medicine because I didn't know what you were allergic to but I got some chicken noodle soup and a ice pack that can be cold or hot and I got some dinosaur gummies because they're awesome" I giggled he then came to be and got out the Vitamins and had a T-Rex and Tyrannosaurus Rex he offered me some but I denied I didn't want any "Well I am going to make the chicken noodle soup and we will have some and I will make sure you're all good and cozy and leave and make sure you get your rest" he said I smiled and he kissed my forehead and he got up and went into the bathroom and I got a text from Taylor "So you still think you're pregnant?" I sighed "Yeah, I feel so bad keeping it from Kellin, I mean maybe he won't care and love the baby" I text her and I heard him singing low to himself in the kitchen I giggled then my phone vibrated again "Well don't feel bad that test isn't always right, and maybe he would but you need to know for sure"  "Yeah okay well I am going to go talk to Kellin but I won't let him know" I get up and go into the kitchen and come up behind Kellin "You should be laying down sweetheart" he said "But with you here I can't stay away and I wanted to talk about our future" I said I grabbed the chair from my table and sat while Kellin stood beside the stove "So have you made up your mind about kids?" I asked and he thought for a second "Yeah I want to wait till we are married maybe two or three years? So Copeland is a little bit older" he said I was scared of that "What happens if on the way to marriage I get pregnant before marriage what will we do?" I asked "I don't know but I really want to wait, why you ask?" he asks me I think he's catching on "you know I want kids and  we aren't going to get a baby the first try so we would practice and I wondered what would happen if we practiced and I got pregnant" I said luckily I could think of something fast he finished the chicken soup and we ate it and then he tucked me into my bed "Don't leave me" I told him so he stayed and the whole day we watched Netflix in bed and I feel asleep in his arms something I loved so much but if I am pregnant I will be stuck in an empty bed something I don't like anymore since I have been with Kellin and remembered what it feels like to have someone love you as much as he does I just wish 10am would get here so I wouldnt guess and keep myself worried and scared a feeling that left my body when Jake left but now's returned but for the first time I don't  know what would happen if he knew if it was true