Don't Tell Me It's Over

Saying it's over

"It's over between you and me!!", "I never want to speak to you again!!!", "You said that you loved me, but it seems like I was being too much and my love wasn't good enough for you!!", Brent said, storming off from my car after our study session, that went horribly wrong.

"Babe I'm sorry! I didn't mean or planned for that to happen!", "He called me outside and asked to see me, so I did!", I flatly stated, trying to stop this argument from excelling.

"Yeah! Like I'm supposed to believe that!", "I saw him pull you into his lips and locked them with yours!", "Weren't you even thinking of me in that moment?", he echoed angrily,walking closer to his apartment door,while a small river of tears ran down his cheeks and under his chin.

"Yes I thought of you! Like I do everyday!", "I think about how I may lose you, how I may lose us over something stupid!", "I don't even know the guy and I wanted that kiss to stop!", "He caused it, not me!", "I love you more than I could ever love myse-"

"Shut up Kenny! Just shut the f*ck up okay!", "The guy clearly seemed to know you! So cut the sh*t!",he yelled, cutting me off.
"I fell in love with you because you were the only one there for me!", "You were the the only one that I could count on! The one person who I thought that would be MY everything!", "You made me smile! Laugh, feel safe, wiped my tears away, comforted me and loved me!", "But you, inviting me over to your house,just as I was returning the feelings, to allow that crap to happen was stupid and way down low!", "I don't know what to think! You f*cked with my feelings!", "You made me feel stupid!", "And you know what... I'm done!!!", "You're stupid! He's stupid! I'm stupid!", "But stupid enough to you let you blind me and not know that you were toying with me!", Brent said as he cried out, opening his apartment door and about to walk in. Lingering his hand on the knob, with his head down. Tears from his eyes met the cold ground.

"Babe please listen to m-"

"No! You listen!!!", he shouted, scissoring my words. I wanted to speak, but I felt that if I say anymore, I'd make our current scene worse than it is. My heart treated him right, but I don't know how this came out and turned us against each other.
"I don't want you here anymore!!!", "You or your boy toy!"

"But I-", I hardly said...

"Just take your stupid Mercedes off the drive way and f*ck off!", " I don't want to hear you anymore! ", he shrugged, stepping backwards inside his apartment, slowly. It was still clear that he was crying, but holding off his tears, cause he was more pissed off for the most.

My chest ached and thumped at every word of heartbreak he said. I was going to lose the one person who I loved the most, by a mistake that some creepy jealous guy caused on purpose and I don't know why.
I wanted to save our relationship, I wanted to save us,but every time I got a short chance to speak, he just got more worked up and more teary-eyed and gripping himself tight as he folded his arms. All I could do was let him rant and speak his mind, because I hurt him by letting that creep kiss me without stopping him.

I was standing on the apartment lawn with my car in the drive way with both doors open. Trying to get my boyfriend back,while taking the verbal lashes from him.

" Expect all and I mean all the stuff you bought me by your house in a couple of days!", (My eyes got watery as he said), "They have no place for me since they just lost all their value along with you! ", he mumbled in a grouchy tone, holding his tears.

" Take your car and go!", "Don't ever come back here or visit me again! ", " Nothing you can say will help you lie this time!", he uttered, completely inside, holding the door, watching me in a angry and sobby expression.

It was hurting me as much as it hurt him. The more I saw him like that the guilt poured in. He doesn't want me near him anymore. My heart pounded as I felt our bond breaking.

I was fearing the worst was already said, but not yet... " What? What do you mean babe? What are you saying?"

"I'm saying I'm not your babe anymore and this is our goodbye you dumb imbecile!!!", " Get it through your thick skull that we're over and it won't work between us anymore!", he growled and yelled, clenching his fist, trembling a little at hearing his own words.
I too tried hard to block my tears from falling. My body felt numb at every hurtful word he uttered. I wanted to say something. I wanted to scream everything I needed to say, never, I couldn't let it go past my lips. He'd been scarred enough and I just gave him the biggest one. Why was I so allowing? Why did I let this happen? What is wrong with me? ...

"But I love you!", it slipped.

" Well, I used to think so, but now that feeling is gone! I don't feel the same now!", "Just please go away and don't come back! I'll bring your trinkets you bought in a couple of days or a week! ", he muttered, dripping tears from his eyes, pointing me to my car to go home.

I held myself strong for the while and went to my car, closing the passenger door, before getting into the driver's seat and closing the car door, avoiding to look at him as though the guilt would feel heavier than it did.
I started the car, rolling out of the drive way. Once I pulled out on to the asphalt, I took my black leather Jacket off and placed it in my lap, cause I felt a little closed in after what had just happen.

Driving away from the apartment I was so used to seeing was hard, but looking at the mirror as it reflected him crying and slamming the door was harder and I couldn't help but sob.

Tears ran down my face, treading under my chin and falling on to my jacket as I thought about him and me being the one to break him down. What kind of monster would do that to a nice guy like him?
I found love, finally with the right person and some creep had to go and ruin that for me. Besides, he called me at my fence, asking to see me, pulled me in for a kiss and ran off, looking to see if Brent saw.

Ugh! Who was that creep anyway?... I'm going to find him and fix this mess, cause I want to know why he did that and what was that kiss all about...