If Only ⇢ Kai x Ein

⇢ Chapter 7

"When I was only a pup, humans accused my parents of killing another human in the town we lived, so they killed my parents without even letting them have a say. I know they'd never kill a human. They were such peaceful and loving people.. My mother hid me under a floorboard in time... Before she was killed.. I could hear her screams, her cries in pain." Ein sniffed as tears rolled down his cheeks.

"Sometimes I wish I died with them... I obviously wasn't worth it... Instead of hiding me they could have escaped somehow... I only became a disappointment... I was an omega, I was unable to stand up for myself, and I was straight up stupid." He yelled and buried his face into his knees.

My eyes widened as I moved infront of him, wrapping my arms around his shaking body.

"Don't you ever say that about yourself again." I cried, tears coming out of my eyes as I hugged him tighter.

"You aren't a disappointment. You are a strong person, you managed to stay strong through everything that has happened to you. You never gave up and you remained to care about your parents. You even tried to train other werewolves to become stronger for their own health." I said and rubbed soothing circles on his back.

"I-I'm not strong, I failed everything I tried. W-When I was sent to prison my auntie came to visit me and told me that she was done trying. She said I was a disappointment. I wanted to prove myself as stronger but now look at me, I'm a human.. The same kind that killed my parents." He cried loudly and started rubbing his eyes.

I lifted his head off his knees and placed my hands on either side of his cheeks.

"You are not a disappointment. What she says doesn't define you. She obviously doesn't understand what you've been through nor does she understand how hard you have tried to make yourself happy." I cooed and whipped his tears away with my thumbs.

"B-But, the only way I tried to make myself happy was by destroying other people's happiness.. I even destroyed yours with my stupid past.." He cried and refused to look at me still.

"You think you've destroyed my happiness? Ein, you are my happiness.. Sure, I thought I was happy back then but now I know I wasn't. I was just that average teenage school boy, nothing special. Yes, I got good grades and I had decent friends, but does that mean I was happy? No." I started.

"My parents pushed me to work hard. I would stay up late hours and was unable to even go anywhere on weekends with people just because my parents wanted me to study for things I never even needed. When I changed, my parents also said I was a disappointment and threw me out, but did that stop me? I still had hope. Your happiness means more to me than anything, you helped me realise that I didn't need to stay unhappy, I could go do something and be somewhere that makes me happy, with people that make me happy." More tears started prickling In my eyes.

"If you took one look at me right now, I bet you'd think I'm not happy where I am, but truth is, it's better than where I once was. I don't need a nice house or a college degree. What I need is real family who love me for who I am, and not the grades I get. I am free, for once I am able to be happy without faking it. I can laugh with Jax and Ryder, we've all been through similar situations and we help eachother through it. No one else can define us, Ein. It takes us a while to find ourselves but when we do, we are happy. We just have to ignore our past and the people that once tried to drag us down. It won't always be easy, but we're in this together" I finished and took a deep breath.

Ein slowly looked at me with wide eyes and pulled me into a tight embrace.

"T-Thank you..." He whispered as his head rested on my shoulder.

I hugged him back almost instantly and closed my eyes.

"You're safe with us. We want to help you, that's why we are here." I whispered in his ear.

"I-I still can't help but feel guilty for being the reason that you guys are here.." Ein sniffed

"As I said, it's much better than where we once were." I smiled and finally broke the hug, looking into his watery eyes.

He smiled back at me, his tear stained cheeks turning into dimples from his smile.

"I-I never would have expected you to be the one who makes me feel happier. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you in highschool, I was such an asshole to you, I-I even ruined your date with Aphmau..." Ein admitted and broke eye contact, his smile fading.

I laughed slightly in return, making him look back at me with a confused expression.

"Jax and Ryder told me about that ages ago, it honestly doesn't bother me. Aphmau wasn't the right person for me anyway. We became friends again after that but shortly we faded away from eachother. She never really spoke to me again." I laughed and looked back at the sun, realisation hitting me.

"Woah! The sun's fully up! We best be getting back before Jax and Ryder try to cook themselves lunch!" I laughed and helped Ein up.

He laughed in return and ran back to the cottage with me.

Boy, I'm glad I could get that off my chest.