If I Fall in Love Again A fanfiction (Ashrald)

Chapter 29

It was Thursday today. Rehearsal again with Ge. How on earth was I going to face him now? How could I look at him, and not be uncomfortable, knowing what I know? I was grateful to Ken, who told me, but it gave me the feeling of unease.

I walked into the stsudio. As usual, no one was there. I liked being early for rehearsals. It helped me to clear my mind for the prod. But today, I just couldn't relax. My mind was so overwhelmed. I wanted someone to talk to, but it seemed awkward. I couldn't confide in my friends, it was too private. I wanted to tell my parents, but i still felt ashamed over what happened last year. Gerald would be ideal, because he's the one who made me like his, but I could barely look him in the face.

I sighed, and pulled out my book, and started to read while I waited.

Gerald: 

Rehearsals again. Time to face Sarah. I entered the room, and saw her almost immediately. She was all by herself, reading a book, as if she was in her own little world. I feel the familiar stir in my heart as I approach her. "Sarah!"

She looks up, and smiles at me. But this smile is different. It is not the smile of a happy child. It is one of a person who's trying to hide.

"Hi Gege."

I sat down beside her. "So....Anong binabasa mo ngayon?"

She hold the book out for me to see. "The host by Stephanie Meyer." 

"Tungkol saan naman yan."

"saan pa, ay di pagibig."

I was silent. "Sarah...May problema ka ba?"

I notice her gulp. "Uhm...Wala naman, bakit mo ba nasabi?"

"Iba ka kasi ngayon eh."

She shrugs. "Wala. Pagod lang.

She may be an amazing actress, or a box office queen, but she wasn't fooling me.

"Tungkol ba to sa sinabi ni Ken sa yo?"

"Alam mo?" She said softly.

I nodded.

She sighs. "Buti naman. Natatakot kasi ako para sa kanya eh. Baka patayin mo eh."

I laugh. "Muntik na nga."

We laugh together, the tension leaving us for a second. 

"Uhm, Sarah...Tungkol sa mga sinasabi ni Ken sa yo...Wag mo na lang pagisipan ha?"

She looks at me sersiously. "Gerald, paano ko bang hindi iisipin? Napepressure ako eh. Wala din akong masabihan. Natatakot din akong mawala ka sa akin dahil kaibigan kita. Importante ka sa akin, pero Ge, sa mga nakikita ko, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko. Hindi lang naman ito sa sinabi ni Ken eh. Sa notebook din na biinigay mo sa akin. Oo, sinabi ko na sa yo na kinilig ako eh, diba? Pero hindi ko alam kung anong sasagutin ko sa tanong mo. Hindi ko alam kung paano sasagutin ang tanong ng kapatid mo. Hindi ko alam..."

Tears start to fall down her face.

 I didn't know what to do, or how to respond. C'mon Ge, you're the guy, do Something! I think to myself. I wipe her tears away. All of a sudden, she hugs me. She holds me tight, and cries into my shirt. I hold her there, patting her back, as I try to think of something to say. Gerald, ang tanga mo talaga. Ikaw naman ang may kasalanan kung bakit sya umiiyak ngayon eh. I felt guilty. As I looked back, I realized all the pressure she's been through, and all I can think of was that Ken was annoying the hell out of me.

"Sarah...I'm Sorry." I say, lamely. So much for a knight and shining armour.

She pulls back. "OA ko noh?" she sniffs.

"Hindi. May tama ka naman eh. Dapat hindi ko pinilit sarili ko sa yo. Never mo naman sinabi namahal mo ako diba?"

She doesn't repsond.

"Alam mo, tama si Ken. Tanga ako. Hindi ako marunong manligaw, kaya umaalis lang ang babae sa akin." 

"Hindi naman noh." She says.

"Ikaw nga eh, napayak sa pan liligaw ko, sinasabi mo marunong ako manligaw?"

"hindi...Nabigla ako eh. Alam mo naman kung bakit diba?"

I nod my head.

"Tapos, ang kapatid mo, parang full force yata."

"Oo nga eh. Nakakainis nga minsan eh. Umbagin ko nga pag uwi."

"Wag ka naman ganyan."

"E kasi naman, parang napaka desperate ko naman kasi eh."

"Medyo."

"Sorry ulit, ha?" I put my arm over her shoulder.

She nods.

"Okay na ba tayo? Ayaw ko naman kasi mag ilangan tayo everytime."

She nods. "Okay. Ito nga pala...." Sh pulls out the notebook.

"Bakit mo binabalik sa akin to?"

She looks at me sadly. "Gerald...Hindi ko pa kasi pwedeng sagutin ang tanung mo sa akin eh."

I sigh. It hurts, but i understand. "Naiintindihan ko."

"Gerald, hindi mo desrve na mag hintay. Ayaw kitang saktan."

I take the notebook in my hands. "I'll still keep waiting though."

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Sana po naenjoy nyo! Sorry po kung medyo sad. peace! Also, I know this is a little, well, EXTREMELY rushed. Sorry for that. REVISIONS TO COME!!!!!! (I really gotta learn how to edit....)