I looked in the mirror, slightly spacing off and ignoring my outer appearance completely. Sighs hung on my lips as I brushed the steam off of the reflecting material in front of me. In my mind my face just consisted of the still bruised lip, the terrible dark bangs under my eyes and some kind of darkness that was flowing around my head.
I felt exhausted and I knew that I was just on my low mood days and it would go away again. But I knew as well that even if it went away, it would just come back as quickly.
Why did I want to do? Is this the right thing for me? Should I rather do something else?
Sometimes I felt like the passion that I had just left, leaving me with a task so unfulfilling that it made my current condition worse. Confused and distressed, but not being able to really state what the thing was that would be precious to me again. To be honest, I really had that fierce spirit when it came to my doing now, and thinking about it just takes me to the possibility that I did not loose the passion concerning that. I lost passion concerning me.
Dealing with myself and my inner demon that was strong again today, I jumped a bit as a loud noise was heard outside followed by a cry of a boy. For a second I was terrified, thrown out of thoughts that stole my whole consciousness. Yet, a small smile made its way onto my expression, fought parts of the darkness bringing back the light.
Surprised I have to giggle, acknowledging my mood swing, letting it take over. Just a few seconds later I felt as the heavy weight on my heart just got lighter.
They just made me smile, even through my hard times which were normal in some way I guess.
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Hello! =)
I am RaifuChan and this will be my first published story here. Yay.. no more hiding and just reading.
I want to do this in order to improve my writing because it is nowhere near good and I kinda want to change that. So please tell me if there are huge mistakes or anything else.
IMPORTANT NOTE: In this story I want to deal with a topic concerning me and a lot of people, too. You, as a reader, will suffer from a depression that will be a bit like my own, so please think about that. I am hoping that writing that down will help me dealing with it.
Thanks your reading. See you <3
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Shattered | (Monsta X x Reader)
RomanceYou were a trainee at Starship, taking your last steps and diving into your debut. You were more of a secret to everyone else, maybe because you never talked that much and just rushed from training to training. And now you would have to work with...
