My mind is so confused and fuzzy, I don't know how to feel any more! I still care about him, i still want to be there for him and love him every step of the way but in fact, I'm hurting so damn much! I still love him, whenever I think about love it's him, whenever I think about anything, it's him. It's not fair and I fucking hate it! I hate it so much! I like someone else. I can feel myself slipping deeper into his grasps but am I ready? I think it's still too soon. My heart hasn't healed completely. I still want to cry when i think about just your name even. I can't stand it! I can't stand you. Sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me but in reality I know you don't. I know you're over the rash, clumsy, stupid girl that you played so hard that after almost 5 months, she'd still come to you beckon call, but still, I foolishly let myself hope. And I hope that one day you'll show up at my house, hug me and tell me you were wrong and tell me that you're my prince charming and you're going to make me okay again. I'd say no. I'd refuse, because I know how painful it was the first time and the second time would be so much worse. But still, I hope... How foolish am I.
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RandomThese are just things I wrote either during or after relationships I've had and I don't think they're in the least big good but oh well. Might as well if no one's gonna read them :/
