'Why am I the only one that is confused?'
It sucks. Being the only person who's never been in a dance competition. Who's never experience a dance convention. I hate it. I hate being the only one that doesn't know local dancers and choreographers. I hate being the only one who struggles while learning a dance.
'Wait what, I thought it was left then right? Why is everyone going right?'
I look like a fool. I can't get a simply 8-count. I can already hear my team discriminate me, making fun of me.
"Geesh, she can't even turn correctly, how did she get in the dance team?"
"Use more facial! No one wants to see your robot face."
"Haha look at the way she steps, hilarious!"
I imagine things that will never actually happen, but I still think about them. It makes me insecure by second.
'Okay so duck down, roll, jump up. Easy peasy.'
I took a deep breath and ducked down. I sighed as I jumped up.
'I was too late jumping up.'
I looked down, frustrated and angry at myself.
"Leah, you'll get it. Don't worry ight?" One of my team members whispered. I nodded in response.
'Listen to her, you aren't perfect. You're not going to get it the first time, or the second. Sometimes learning a dance takes time.'
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Focus, focus, focus.
I learned that dancing with your feet won't help you, but dancing with your heart will make you even better.
Who cares if I'm the only one who doesn't have experience. I'm learning along the way...
A dancer's Thoughts.
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Written by; Aaleah Mendoza
Instagram @aaleahmarie
July 29, 2017
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