a year my ass

twenty-eight

I layed in a bit of shook as much as I want to i think I'm thinking about the time we have left to much and his whole family is in the house

But I can't say no to that face...

"S-sure" i whispered he smiled and got closers to my face
"Good...cuz. ..I don't. ..think I could. ..last any..longer" he said in-between kisses I turned on my bad so he could claim on top
My heart beat was starting to pick up when he tugged My shirt off and tossed it to the floor
I sat up with my breath picking up while I pulled Carl's red shirt over his head kissing him
"I love you lily" he said I smiled
"I love you to" I said laying back so he could sild my shorts off next he took his off soon before i knew it we both layed naked making out,he disconnected are lips and leaned over to his bed side table to grab a condom oh God this is really gonna happen isn't is i.closed my eyes focused on my heart beat

"Baby chill" carl laughed kissing my neck I nodded and tugged on his hair a bit making him moan a oh fuck that moan was sexy
I closed my eyes again but again my mind went back to thinking
I took a deep breath and felt and tear slid down my cheek carl noticed and let go on my skin he was sacking on "Baby you ok" he asked i shook my head and sat up wiping the tears away
"C-carl I remember w-what I was gonna say over the p-phone" i shuddered I totally just fucked this up he's not gonna wanna have sex after this
"What is it baby" he said in a low tone rubbing my leg

"I-it been almost a year...my mom's gonna be home soon like in a month carl" i said crying his face dropped as he counted to make sure I just felt my heart shatter when he noticed him self I leaned my head back in the wall letting more tears come
"A year my ass" i said his grip on my leg tighten
"I don't want you to leave" he whispered grabbing my hand i felt so stupid sitting there naked I killed Carl's Boner and I was crying

I grabbed my shirt slipping it back on "we have school tomorrow we should get to sleep" i said my God did i feel so stupid he just sat there dozed off in space "I'll be back" i said tugging my bottoms on

I stepped out of the room and cried. ...just cried like a child i steeped out front getting some fresh air watching the sun starting to rise.
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"CARL UP NOW" Fiona yelled from down stairs
"Here bud" i said the Liam who I was getting ready for school he.smiled and grabbed the soda I got him
"Lips taking him" fiona said opening the dryer and grabbinga shirt
"Alright" i said as carl came down stairs just i wasn't expecting what I seen.
"Holy shit you look bad" debbie said to her beother as she came down the steps, Fiona looked at me confused look and i gave her the 'I'll talk to you later' look she nodded and walked out of the room
"I don't feel like going to school" he said sitting down right in the middle of the stairs
"Come on babe there's like 3 months of school left" i said he frowned "your not gonna be here for that long" he whispered rubbing his red puffy eyes
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"Gallagher are you paying attention" our teacher snapped I turned my head to look at carl he rolled his eyes and nodded
"Don't roll your eyes again am I clear" she said carl nodded and rested his head on his hand

Carl's been down all day and I know why he just won't talk about it and it's bugging me

"Whys carl being a bitch ass" debbie asked setting her tray down next to me pulling the chair out
"Really wanna know" i asked she nodded and I set my milk down
" my mom gets home next month" i said bit I don't thing she got what I was saying
"My mom's year trip, the while reason I'm here to stay a year with my dad" i said clearing it a bit "ohhhhh- what that means" she asked if nodded and she frownd
"Why tho can't you stay" she asked
"My mom wouldn't let me stay she only let me stay down here cuz she has work" i said I'm not sure what I'm gonna do

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What should lily do??