happiness (sequel to dear joey)

Happiness 15

Dear Joey,

A year has passed.

A year.

1 year.

It seems like forever.

I took little Matt with me to the cemetery.

I told him how you were his dad, and how much you would've loved him.

Little Matt was so stunned to be there, he was just touching the stone and calling me mama.

I cried, I shed a few tears.

Like two tears fell down.

I don't even have enough tears to actually cry!

I did talk to you there after little Matt fell asleep.

I told you all about Will and how we ended up being together for another month until he told me,

"This is too much for me. I didn't sign up for this."

Hahaha.

Like I signed up to raise a little baby boy without you?

Haha.

I laughed in his face.

I'm happy that he left. It just means that I can raise little Matt on my own. By myself.

A happy single mother.

Cause I am happy,

I have a little boy who I am absolutely in love with him. He calls me mama, not fully yet, but he says it.

I'm moving on with my life,

I know it's been a year without you and I know that I will miss you sometimes, but right now,

I'm happy.

I'm focusing on my son. My little baby Matt. He needs me and he wants me to be happy.

I know that you would be happy for me, that I'm moving on.

You should be happy.

I love you.

Love,
Anastasia