Stone Cold

It happens to everyone, that's all we know. Everyone has to experience feeling down, we all have to feel pain and vulnerability. The breakdown will happen eventually, slowly but soon enough we will see everything falling apart, every dream we've dreamt will shatter down at one point. Do we know which dream? Do we know the reason? Do we expect it?
We don't.

Instead we just wait around, hope that this day never arrives. We dream every night before we close our eyes that tomorrow when sun shines a new start begins, and hopefully this beginning is a happy one.

When the sun shine arrives and the bad news happens, we start to then wonder how did OK use to feel like!
How did everything feel right?
Was everything alright or were we just pretending it was?

We start feeling a new feeling of hurt. Was someone else the reason behind it? Maybe.
Was it our choice? Maybe.
Will this leave a mark on our heart? It will indeed.
Will we get over it soon? Maybe.

The only thing that is confirmed though, that it's pain. It's a feeling of being lost.
It's a feeling of being lonely.

Do we deserve this feeling though? Or we just accept because we grew up with the human nature of mood swings?

All we are capable of doing is close our eyes, set the tears free and dream of a new start. Hope that when the sun shines we have the chance to have a happy beginning.

And the cycle just goes on.

The next day we open our eyes, look in the mirror, take the decision and go on with our daily lives, pretending or forgetting on purpose that yesterday happened.

We look around, see all these people smiling down at us, we start wondering how was their yesterday? Did they feel how we felt? Was their yesterday the happy day?

Everyone's talking, we only see lips moving, but are we listening?
Do we know what they are saying? Why they are saying that?
Do we even care?
Do they care?
If they do, where were they yesterday.
Where were all the close people when we were feeling down?
Why there were no one by our side?
'Don't be selfish everyone has their own problems'
That's the answer that our minds pulses at us immediately. But we did too have our problems when their bad yesterday happened, yet we let go, we left every worry we had, just to be by their side.
We never left them alone. Or did they still feel alone? Maybe they forget we were there! Or maybe even being by their side never affected them.

At the very end, we never forget yesterday, we pretended to when we stood in front of the mirror, lying to our selves, lying to every single person we smiled at.

We all have to go through a moment of failure, but when it comes, it's beyond expectations.

We only can smile and pretend to be ok, maybe even STONE COLD.