My subway ride was longer than usual. And as to spite me ,time has stopped ,and dissatisfied with life people are constantly throwing at me your blank ,drooping glances,and sometimes even without shame looked at what brought me considerable discomfort.
But I turn my back to the window and are trying to bring their senses back to normal. No,not for the poor people in this metro,and for the upcoming father's answer. Who am I kidding? I already know what he'll say, in spite of his eternal excuses that he would settle their problems at work and we will stay in San Diego,in California at least for another two years that I graduated from high school ,and then we could move .But no ,the job of the Pope requires constantly new clients,new people and more customers to promote the company than he has been doing for the past five years.
I have it ,so to speak, to go with the flow. While all of this much harder than it looks from the outside.
Since childhood I had trouble getting along with other children and with age, this problem must have become more and more.
And now that I'm moving, I'll have to leave her two loyal friends ,which I found with great difficulty and forget that we spoke.
Honestly ,I don't believe in distance relationships. Though friendly ,even love ,for each has its own life and people are simply just out of the circles,their stops ,something to relate, because everyone has their own life... Believe me,it showed me my personal experience.
In the yard in the heat of July. Weather makes itself felt constant variability. Yesterday was the Inferno,and now the weather changed to a cold drizzle,which causes apathy and a strange depression.
This is my stop. Go out a couple of times apologizing for the fact that accidentally stepped on his feet and finally leave this shithole.
On the clock the eighth hour,my dad is home already ,and that is me ,it's a ten-minute walk to a small rented apartment on the outskirts....
Me I name is Alice Rail and my life revolves only on the fact that I'm constantly changing their place of residence ,school and American States...
For seventeen ,I have tried about six different cities in the United States.
Yes ,many would have said I was the most spoiled daddy's girl,that travel is very educational,and would have thrown me a few rotten tomatoes. But one answer. It's so hard. You don't have time to get used to a new climate ,home,school and classmates ,as you have to drop everything and go to the next oblivion....
I think you have begs the question ,where's my mom and why I complain so much to life that cannot live with other relatives.
This is one of the sick things I never talk.
My mother ...she is sick,obsessed with alcohol and probably even on drugs,she lost her job. Daddy don't live more than five years. It was a long time ago,but I remember how it all came to a wild fights ,broken dishes and even physical.
Dad left me a choice and said I can leave whenever I want. But I'm not gone and will never go away,because I'm scared. Scary to meet her and look into the eyes...This is my past ,which will bleed each time mentioning it.
Imperceptibly come to a familiar area. I go into the yard and up the steps of a shabby house,which got me already as native.
House lights on - no doubt the father of the house,the conversation can not be avoided and disappointments too.
The sound of a key in the doorway,open the door, take off my shoes and slowly walk in the old living room.
Hi. -obligacijas on a chair ,waiting for a response.
Hi. unhappy serious.
-How's the company? Are there any news?
-Yes,I wanted to talk to you about it, and I think you will not be happy.
Silent. Inside of me collapsed ,is the hope that after all ,we're staying. I knew it would be like this,although deep down, I lived that everything will work out.
-Listen, Alice, I'm sorry we're moving again ,but how are we different? You know that if I leave this job - that is not possible, another I hardly find or do you offer me to work as a janitor or a cleaner? Not upset ,okay? There is good news.
-What other good news ,dad? You know what I find bad language with others,I have half a year to be some outsider or an outcast in school,maybe I do not find friends. Is it too much to stay here for another two years. Even less.
Our company can easily go bankrupt, if
customer will not,and in two years we will starve to death because profit is no will,Alice ,listen to me.
He swallows the lump of resentment. He can't hear how bad I feel ,sees what's going on with me, he cares about sometimes, their problems, and this ill-fated company.
-Well, what I'm saying? I talked about the good news. In General ,after about a week we're moving,no,not about that. I bought a house ,and now ,we're not going to live in these communal apartments.
I did not show it ,but this is actually really good news.
In these areas, very often there is a lot of failures and breakdowns. And for reasons like electricity and hot water with the heating switched off at certain periods. Here is terrible! And I was glad to leave from here right now.
This house is beautiful. It has two floors,has six rooms. I've thought about it,procrastinated,and I hope we can stay there. -dad says with delight. I'm thinking that would support it. Stay at least two to three years. Well if not its easy to sell.
-Dad,that's great. I'm glad we're moving out of the area... -looking at each other and smile. Perhaps it's not so bad, right? I do not ask even what city we'll eat this time.
-This city is gorgeous. Even though he was less San Diego three times. But there
almost always warm,not so expensive and not robbed on every corner.
-Dad,we eat in Oakland? in my heart I rejoice as nine-year-old Alice. Because at nine I wanted to go there.
Yeah,you wanted to go there since childhood
-That's great!
-You'll like it there ,you'll see.
If I only knew how this will end....
