Missing My Styles.

Why can't you let it go?

*****Jennifer's P.O.V****

Throughout the night, I was disturbed by the constant itchiness of the stitches. I just could not help waking up every 15-20 minutes just to moan once and doze off again. But every time I'd wake up, Harry would be around. Every single time. Wide awake. As if he was always just waiting for me to need something so he could get it for me. I was too broken to admit it, but I couldn't stop admiring his love and care for me. Oh How I wished I could just kiss him right there and then so passionately that I can't explain it in words. Only if my past hadn't been so dark. So painful. So unforgettable.

I was awaken once again by a burning sensation in the skin on my back. I wanted to rip it apart, it was so itchy. It was 4:22am and something was different this time.  Harry wasn't in sight. I turned my head, trying to contain my moan, and there he was, cuddled up on the sofa which was extremely small for his tall frame. A felt a smile spread across my face. And then, something I was afraid of, happened. A loud, unmeant wince escaped my lips and instantly, he was up. I felt like killing myself. It was after so long that he had gotten the chance to sleep and he was doing so, so peacefully but I had ruined it again.

"I'm okay. I'm okay. Go back to sleep. Please." I pleaded, but there was nothing persuading him. Without saying a thing, he got up immediately and was by my side checking my drips and stitches and other stuff. He had asked the nurse to tell him what to check in order to see if I'm okay or not. He let out a sign of relief. I looked up and my attention was instantaneously diverted to the huge dark circles around his eyes. He was tired. These were his days off, he needed rest and I had made that impossible. 

"I'll be alright, Haz. Y--You should go home." I said, taking my chances.

"Oh yeah? Well, you should shut the hell up!" He snapped, taking me completely by surprise. 

Noticing my expression, he softened up. 

"Hey hey hey. Listen, I'm sorry." He said, gripping my face in both of his huge, icy cold hands. 

That touch was all I needed to make me forget all the pain in my body. It felt like all the fire in my back was chilled by his gentle yet so controlling touch. Completely unintended, my eyes shut close and my head tilted towards his hand, as if finding comfort in his touch. 

"Look at me!"He demanded softly.

Obeying him, I opened my eyes and found his face unexpectedly close to mine. I could feel his breath on my face.

"I'm not leaving you...Not this time...So stop telling me to." He exclaimed.

His mesmerizing eyes pierced right through my heart and I could feel his loyalty. Something deep inside, was ordering me to believe him and I did. 

I nodded and the close contact should have been over by then, but it wasn't. We kept like that for a couple more minutes, looking deep into each other's eyes. Feeling the love. This wasn't normal. 

I felt him coming closer. and I knew what was coming next.

I couldn't.

I blinked twice and jerked my head away as gently as I could. He moved back immediately. I could see the pain in his eyes. He stood straight and marched out of the room. Great! Now he was mad at me. I couldn't stop the tears from flowing out of my eyes and I looked up at the ceiling. As if on cue, the medicine kicked in and I dozed off. 

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