Flashback

Prologue

What is worse than not remembering anything?

She’s heard of stories describing a person’s loneliness and frustration at not having any memory of himself or his life.

They say this happens after the brain experiences some form of trauma that results in memories being “lost” or repressed.

Childhood memories and even very recent ones may be lost forever---possibly unable to be regained without intervention or miracle. Everything erased in a moment of tragedy that nobody could have anticipated nor prevented.

It’s called amnesia, they say.  

It may seem insensitive and most times she felt guilty for thinking so, but she could very well say that amnesia could be a blessing.

She’s had many painful memories she would rather forget but could not. They came to her in flashes of moments and images without warning or mercy.

They take her, wound her, and break her.

So much so that she felt empty after each episode. She would only be a shell of herself lost and numb if not for the onslaught of the present hitting her like a gush of wind, leaving her breathless.

But that was actually the good part.

The bad part?

Well that would be when it would come to her again and again like a digital video on loop, unforgiving and relentless... until she would be forced do something to make it go away.

The worst part?

The memories are not even hers.

So what is worse than remembering nothing?

To her the answer was simple.

It’s remembering everything.